07 Oct 2020, 10:53 pm
seaweed wrote:
cberg, i know it's been awhile since we've had any communication but i want you to know that your constructive insights about love and human relationships have had a relatively significant impact in my life (at the time i was with an abusive person who i could not easily leave, and additionally i was grappling with feelings of love and forgiveness for this person). and even though we don't know each other, you were a voice of both empathy and reason, and i could tell that your intentions were purely to be helpful in any way you knew you could be.
humaning is hard, but i think it's especially hard to have human emotions and needs when you don't function how normal humans do. misunderstandings seem to come out of nowhere but somehow it's even harder to resolve understandings. it can be extremely isolating, even if you're in a relationship.
this is just to say that i think you're good at connection, at least in this way, and i think your humanity is valuable. but i'm only one kind-of human.
humaning is hard, but i think it's especially hard to have human emotions and needs when you don't function how normal humans do. misunderstandings seem to come out of nowhere but somehow it's even harder to resolve understandings. it can be extremely isolating, even if you're in a relationship.
this is just to say that i think you're good at connection, at least in this way, and i think your humanity is valuable. but i'm only one kind-of human.
I would hope in more ways than one that there's pretty much just the one kind of human.
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07 Oct 2020, 10:56 pm
seaweed wrote:
cberg wrote:
I think my brain's been on screensaver quite a lot lately.
this screensaver was a highlight of my childhood
I'm a fan of those Linux-y cube thingies personally.
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07 Oct 2020, 10:59 pm
Cartesian spaces are nice & all but I like not feeling too very Euclidean all the time.
I tend to do lazy trig in my head without really thinking about it or thinking about why I'm thinking about it. I guess that's really distracting to women. 
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07 Oct 2020, 11:04 pm
I can trig until I'm blue in the face but don't ask me to calc.
My coffee-based Pavlovian system of self discipline is not without pitfalls.
I want to factor in humanity as much as possible, but that's not exactly the way of the world with regards to tech work. I think a lot about breaking down the taboo around being a hacker for so many years, when I should have also done more humaning...
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08 Oct 2020, 6:35 pm
08 Oct 2020, 9:29 pm
Bleh, mods are muzzling me when I bring them to their senses about how guys are talking these days.
Later.
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17 Oct 2020, 6:21 pm
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Recently I went on two park dates with two different people.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
I wish I could say, lately I've been more shut down than in touch with the autism-aware parts of reality lately. For all I really care to know, there's nobody alive who doesn't discriminate on this basis. It never was a comfortable subject for anybody.
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18 Oct 2020, 2:53 pm
martianprincess wrote:
Recently I went on two park dates with two different people.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
It's less the question if you are but wether they have a mental problem with this. You can't hide that because it makes the emotional connection that NTs are into impossible. The big problem is that love (not sex) requires an emotional connection. The bad thing is we aren't the same emotional that NTs are who are nonstop feeling somehow and whatever and realize the emotions of each other as well. The good thing is is we aren't the same emotional way that NTs are what has advantages as well except if it comes to start relationships with NTs.
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Life has to be an adventure!18 Oct 2020, 7:04 pm
The western idea that some brains work OK & some brains need to be medicated/coerced into submission towards the broader society is SO WRONG.
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19 Oct 2020, 5:44 am
19 Oct 2020, 6:21 am
The_Face_of_Boo wrote:
cberg wrote:
The western idea that some brains work OK & some brains need to be medicated/coerced into submission towards the broader society is SO WRONG.
It's called psychiatry.
So true.
19 Oct 2020, 1:06 pm
The_Face_of_Boo wrote:
cberg wrote:
The western idea that some brains work OK & some brains need to be medicated/coerced into submission towards the broader society is SO WRONG.
It's called psychiatry.
Yeah & it's an industry moreso than it's a science. Nobody knows how the brain works. We know vastly more about the moon & deep ocean.
I for one feel stereotyped into oblivion. WTF is the point of being anywhere if people are just there to condescend about my weird brain?
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19 Oct 2020, 1:13 pm
19 Oct 2020, 3:15 pm
I think the whole thing is more of a social construct than it could possibly be a legitimate scientific process at all. There's no such thing as clean data from a captive sample group.
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20 Oct 2020, 12:45 am
There is no good social construct, only deconstruction can lead to substantial enough systemic change for people to make sense of what's going on right now.
As far as genetic mysteries go, I don't know where I am. It's apparent enough that everyone in my life whom I tend to trust enough is more or less aware of that.
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28 Oct 2020, 7:50 pm
martianprincess wrote:
Recently I went on two park dates with two different people.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
They both asked me if I was on the spectrum.
I thought I was more conspicuous than this, but apparently I am all too obvious.
What now.
Now that I think about it again, someone at work asked me out of nowhere since her kid has ASD. I suppose it means more to me that someone closer to me didn't notice until I told her & she's a psych major of all things.
I have no blasted clue what to do about this either, like I need to represent myself one of two ways depending on who I'm talking to, unless I'm talking to more than one person. Ultimately all the stigma about me says I'm better left to my own devices, but the cause only announces itself at random.
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