The thing is though, I really do not like the lady. It's not about looks, its about personality, I do not feel that it is a good match. I do not like unpredictable people, though she seems ok, it is just that I cannot relate to the person.
More so, I could care less about the "sexual stuff", such as leg touching and figuring out what to do (though like any male or human sexual things are desired).
I cannot find people to talk to other then servers who ask what I want and get paid to serve food.
I'm not interested in the lady because she is entirely different then me, I cannot find similarities or topic materials.
The computer is for instance like one person, it is all text things on my screen and if relevancy in another social name finds my topic material then information is corresponded.
In person, in real-time it is different. I have no social anxiety, no fear of people and I do not believe I am anti-social.
Mostly I am looking for someone, yes a lady because I am not gay, to cope with the world with. Not try to cope with the lady and all the hidden meanings.
So I am not going on the 3rd date which was supposed to just be a activities partner for things to do, I find no interest in her. Besides I am sure she will find someone good for her and be happy, she is not the one for me.
Mostly this comes from subconscious understanding that I will not become normal, I don’t really want to and of course cannot sustain myself independently later in life. I do not want to be governed by social workers, put in a group home or other such arrangements.
I was sort of seeking a g/f and not just to find someone for the future, more so to do with another post concerning A.S.D and disability. For later in life, when my parents pass.