Not what I thought it was going to be...

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To try to make a long story short. I met someone. We clicked. But we're from completely different worlds. But we get along so well together, and we both really like each other. We've exchanged thoughts and "feelings" about each other too.

But I'm going to be moving away soon, not that I know when exactly, but I told him so he knows it's not going to last forever...but I really want to soak up as much time with him as I can. We haven't kissed or anything...I guess we're both really shy. But he keeps telling me nice things and all that.

But today somehow ended differently. We spent the entire day together, and then after dinner we went to rent a few movies, and then we came back home. I went to my room and then when I came back, he said he had to go. It caught me completely by surprise...being an Aspie, I need to be "mentally" ready for things...especially when it comes to people leaving...otherwise I get really confused and sad and feel like I did something wrong....but he had to be at work at 5 AM and he lives almost an hour away from my house. When he told me he should go, I couldn't hide the disappointment from my face...I looked completely confused and sad. =( So he left, and now I'm just really depressed and missing him so much. I only see him on weekends...but I don't think we're exclusive or anything...and I would never ask, but I just really want to be exclusive...at some point before it's all over.

I don't really know what I'm asking, but I guess have any of you ever felt like that? When you're taken by surprise? If anything, thanks for listening to me ramble on and on.

Um Hmm. I've had way too many experiences a lot like you're describing. I need to know exactly how my time is scheduled with someone. I tend to have a lot of attachment issues and when someone leaves, I often think they're never going to come back. If I'm into someone I view their life outside of me as a threat to my connection with him/her. But if someone doesn't have a life outside of me, I feel smothered and annoyed. Go figure.

Based on your post, I'm not sure if he left before you watched the movies, or after? I'm assuming he left before you watched the movies, which is why you were surprised. (And I don't think being surprised and disappointed has anything to do with being Aspie in the situation you've described - I would have been surprised and disappointed, too.)

Since you were together all day, I doubt he had a bad time or anything....maybe it was more that he was feeling a little nervous about being in a situation (watching some movies) that would be relaxed, and physically close (the two of you sitting on a couch together)? Try to relax about it...follow your typical pattern of contact during the week, and see how he behaves. Hang in there, hon.