Struggling to move on and not sleeping well

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It has been almost four months since not being with my ex girlfriend any more and I still miss her very much.
I placed all my hopes and dreams on her, guitar, and a couple of friends, and that was all I wanted to help me through life.
Now I am not with her, not doing well with music and my friends are not very active right now at all, and they are all online and I have very few.
I feel at my most emotionally vulnerable when going to bed, so I am struggling like crazy to stick to good hours for sleeping.
The night time hurts more than any other time, and my lack of anything happening, lack of social life and lack of communication, and lack of goals being achieved is hurting a lot, as well as the ocd going on.
I hope to find a girlfriend at some point because I feel in a lot of pain right now.
I want to be with my ex girlfriend again, but that won't happen I don't think.
I guess I just feel like a failure.
I would appreciate it if someone could give me a motivational reason for me to feel as though I should stick to a good sleeping routine.

If you don't get enough sleep your body doesn't function properly, and with a correctly functioning body you are better with dealing with emotional pain.

You need excersise sunshine and a proper sleeping pattern, and possibly a job.

Everything is one remember, your physical body is also connected to your emotional state of well being.

I guess if I can, then a good sleeping routine is one thing I can try to focus my attention on.
Thank you, hale_bopp.

It took me years to figure this out, so I hope you won't think it's foolish - things change. Big revelation lol.
The thing is, just when you get things the way you want them, everything changes. When you have that moment when you sit back and say to yourself, "This is great, I'm gonna keep it this way" - catastrophe hits and it all falls apart.

My best guess is this - what triggers the loss(es) is wanting to keep things the way they are. The moment we stop striving, the Universe yanks the rug out from under.

You (and I and everybody else) have to make *huge* dreams, colossal goals, that we can break down into smaller things to achieve, but big enough so that we'll never say we've got what we want and we're going to keep it that way.

I got a job once working for a successful corporate lawyer - he had a corner office the size of Kansas with wrap-around windows and and all the trimmings. He had a Rolex watch but he had taken off watch band and substituted a sporty striped canvas band. He spent a month every year with his family living in a posh hotel in London, and another two weeks on a beach somewhere. And he sat there and said to me, "If I ever win the lottery, I'm outta here."

That was the first time I met somebody whose dreams had all come true. He started as a poor kid, went on scholarship etc. But his dream, even though it looked impossible, wasn't big enough.

I want to be a writer. It's driving me crazy. Good.

Is this long enough yet? Sorry, but something else I discovered is to include volunteering. I volunteer on-line for virtual gigs I can do from home. Feeling useful helps a lot.

volunteermatch.org

Thank you, Claradoon.

I suppose it's all worth it, the pain, the loneliness, the lack of justice, and broken heart, if I can work hard and feel on some calm night that I have achieved something, and look forward to a time when I'm doing something nice on a pleasant Summer's night... knowing that... I did something. I am still here, and I am hanging in there.
It hurts, but... I move forward now.
Speak to everyone in a few hours - I am going to look after myself.

Again, the worst time - night time.
I am talking to my ex girlfriend and feeling hollow and sad.
I am going to brutally force myself to do menial, mundane things in life, even if it means ignoring my own cries for help, and working. I will be a Spartan.

Oh god though I feel so sad right now.
Can someone please send a helping, uplifting message to a man in pain?

hugs. youll be ok
find something new to keep you occupied. before you know it youll have forgotten what it was you were trying to forget:)

I think going to bed at a good hour is one of my biggest challenges right now - I feel in so much pain at night that I just cannot begin to cope, and to top it off, I feel at my most vulnerable when in a dark room trying to sleep.
How in the world am I going to begin to start sleeping well?
I just feel so horrible right now.
I remember my ex girlfriend and I having good times...
People tell me I need to start doing things and start living independently, which is true, but how will I do this and have a sorely broken heart at the same time?
I feel very miserable.

I wish I could rise above this nightmare. I have never been in such a hard situation.
For the first time I'm going to learn a lot of independence with a heavy wounded spirit... it is so much for me.
My ex girlfriend was my life and soul.
I miss her terribly, but she no longer misses me one bit.
I feel hollow without her, and without a companion in general.
My ex girlfriend was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
After 21 years I have little to show as an achievement for 21 long years on this planet, and now I have to soldier on through the ages.
I can't cope.
I need a girlfriend, more friends, less grief, higher skill with music than I currently have, some way to not feel completely out of control emotionally, a place to live that suits my needs more, a few goals in life, and to trust myself and actually feel content more than I feel in pain.