I crave it now!
I demand right now that life gives me a reason to feel happy. I need some sort of attention or something going on.
My emotions are horrible right now.
I feel half suicidal.
My ex girlfriend won't get back with me despite the fact that I love her.
I need a sign. I need SOMETHING.
I need a reason to actually feel like living, and I need a great woman who I can rely on when my emotions take over.
I am very depressed right now and I am not having a good life at this moment in time.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
My emotions are horrible right now.
I feel half suicidal.
My ex girlfriend won't get back with me despite the fact that I love her.
I need a sign. I need SOMETHING.
I need a reason to actually feel like living, and I need a great woman who I can rely on when my emotions take over.
I am very depressed right now and I am not having a good life at this moment in time.
The best reason to feel happy is because feeling unhappy isn't pleasant or profitable.
Find something useful to do, and let your thoughts and feelings do what they must without resisting them. You will be better off.
One thing that almost always helps me is to find someone to help. If you are focusing on other people's happiness, then your own misery will have less space to operate in.
Keep bringing your mind back to positives! Because negativity and unhappiness sucks.
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Honestly I do not feel there is a reason for me left. I feel as though life has failed me. I feel like I have failed life.
I have no room left for happiness.
All I have now is music and poetry, but that cannot solve my problems.
It depresses me to even look at doing average day to day stuff to improve my independence.
I was once in a relationship and was cheated on, but still just shrugged it off because I wanted that relationship to last.
I am a pathetic, dependent man who cannot cope with the cold truths of this world.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
I feel paranoid, I have emotional swings, I feel as though the world is attacking my personality if I try to live through average boring stuff, I feel as though I NEED my ex girlfriend back, I feel as though my guitar is my only life line and even that is a self esteem breaker because I haven't improved my ability on it much for years.
I hate where I live - no activity at all - so deftly dull.
I much prefered America.
I love my ex girlfriend and I seriously need her back.
My family is getting sick of hearing about my problems all the time.
I feel absolutely horrible at night time, and I NEED to talk to my ex girlfriend all the time to try to persuade her to get back with me.
I can't even cope with biased pundits in football arrogantly saying the EPL is the best league even when it might not be anyway, so I REALLY can't cope with a break up of two years.
I am so bizarre that I would even take an abusive partner over being single.
I have a huge sex drive and I have no partner.
I feel as though justice, honour and loyalty needs to be fulfilled and never breached, despite the fact that I would take an abusive partner over my state.
I cannot learn anything right now either.
I don't want to be here any more. I want to give up.
I don't feel competent at anything I do.
I feel as though the world is trying to break me.
I feel as though I have lost in life.
I do not want to even look at doing stuff or learning independence because it depresses the hell out of me.
I do not want to be molded into doing average crap.
I am constantly lonely and never moving forward. There are no friends in life, and those online need time for themselves.
I never exercise physically, and I never do anything. I am destroying myself emotionally.
I never can appreciate things that happen for me, unless it is personally fulfilling, and I mean a partner.
I want to live in a fantasy land and I do not want to live in this world at all.
I have no people outside family, one friend and a councillor to help emotionally bail me out in life, and I would never be able to feel friendships right now in this clinically depressed state anyway.
I need encouragement all the time.
I need a girlfriend, but not just anyone - my ex girlfriend.
I detest the fact that life isn't fair, and I detest the fact that people leave instead of stay and sort out problems.
My emotions constantly go full circle - I don't just forget and let go.
I feel as though I will never get anywhere.
I have been pushed too far.
I don't want to be here any more.
If my ex doesn't take me back, I have nothing to live for any more.
ocd is in my brain as well, and I wonder if there are other psychological problems that have been left unchecked that I don't know if they are there or not.
I just pray this dependent man is accepted back with his ex girlfriend again, otherwise I will continue to feel half suicidal.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
CMaximus
Deinonychus
Joined: 3 Nov 2007
Age: 43
Gender: Male
Posts: 387
Location: Calgary, AB, Canada, Earth
Ah, yes. Most of your problem isn't directly resulting from reality, it's just overall lack of any kind of movement that's making you get moldy. Just start doing anything, and your dwelling on things, which is definitely 98.7+% of your problem, will start to fade. Seriously, most of feeling helpless is an illusion, it's just the fact you're not omniscient that makes you not see all possibilities and from there it's just dwelling that makes you think there's nothing besides what you can imagine. Run, play video games, splurge at your favorite restaurant, masturbate, listen to angsty or uplifting music, whatever. Just get distracted for starters.
AngelRho
Veteran
Joined: 4 Jan 2008
Age: 48
Gender: Male
Posts: 9,366
Location: The Landmass between N.O. and Mobile
The best relationship is MUCH more than what you think of as "love." When it comes to companionship and life, love is NEVER enough.
I don't mean to sound cold, but I can be because I've been there. I was in a ltr that made me absolutely miserable by the time it was close to over. I loved the girl, but I had no choice but to cut her loose. I've posted about what happened an number of times, so I'll spare everyone the details this time. But what happened right after was absolutely horrible. I ended up with a girl I'd gotten to know in high school, fell madly in love with her, and ended up in an INTENSE relationship with her. I just KNEW she was the one. We struggled, broke up, got back together... And then I just had to face up to the fact she was no longer worth obsessing over.
I think the problems we have as aspies (maybe) is that we really struggle with changes sometimes. When we finally get in a good relationship, we can't imagine, because things are working properly for us, that things aren't working for our partners. Which makes breaking up that much more intensely tragic when it happens. It takes what seems like an unimaginable amount of growth to get past that, but trust me, you CAN get past it.
Lock yourself in a room for a day or two. Make sure you remove all forms of potential drugs/poisons, alcohol/other mind-numbing substances, sharp objects, and anything that might cause asphyxiation. Keep a good supply of water and maybe a loaf of bread. Keep lighting subdued. Read a good book to pass the time, listen to calming music, turn off the TV. Empty your brain of all those obsessive thoughts, and after 2, 3 at most, days, come out and rejoin civilization. And whatever you do, do NOT contact your ex. EVER.
Seriously, this one chick I'm talking about, I stalked her and and really treated her horribly, somehow thinking I'd get her back. I didn't hurt her or anything, but it's a wonder she didn't call the cops on me. It was that bad. I was doing my student teaching semester before college graduation, and it got to the point that I had to make up my mind to spend some serious time on my teaching portfolio. So I just (oops) lost her phone number. So one day she calls me up, you know, to "see how I was doing."
Friggin GIVE ME A BREAK!! !
And she was not impressed that I was avoiding her. But I'm serious, it just needed to be done.
I really can sympathize with you because I've been there. Keep your thoughts positive, focus on the things that are working for you, work to improve those things which aren't if they are worth working on, and cut out the things which aren't. The more you count your successes in life, the less it will seem to suck.
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Deinonychus
Joined: 12 Jan 2009
Age: 37
Gender: Male
Posts: 363
Location: United Kingdom
I hate where I live - no activity at all - so deftly dull.
I much prefered America.
I love my ex girlfriend and I seriously need her back.
My family is getting sick of hearing about my problems all the time.
I feel absolutely horrible at night time, and I NEED to talk to my ex girlfriend all the time to try to persuade her to get back with me.
I can't even cope with biased pundits in football arrogantly saying the EPL is the best league even when it might not be anyway, so I REALLY can't cope with a break up of two years.
I am so bizarre that I would even take an abusive partner over being single.
I have a huge sex drive and I have no partner.
I feel as though justice, honour and loyalty needs to be fulfilled and never breached, despite the fact that I would take an abusive partner over my state.
I cannot learn anything right now either.
I don't want to be here any more. I want to give up.
I don't feel competent at anything I do.
I feel as though the world is trying to break me.
I feel as though I have lost in life.
I do not want to even look at doing stuff or learning independence because it depresses the hell out of me.
I do not want to be molded into doing average crap.
I am constantly lonely and never moving forward. There are no friends in life, and those online need time for themselves.
I never exercise physically, and I never do anything. I am destroying myself emotionally.
I never can appreciate things that happen for me, unless it is personally fulfilling, and I mean a partner.
I want to live in a fantasy land and I do not want to live in this world at all.
I have no people outside family, one friend and a councillor to help emotionally bail me out in life, and I would never be able to feel friendships right now in this clinically depressed state anyway.
I need encouragement all the time.
I need a girlfriend, but not just anyone - my ex girlfriend.
I detest the fact that life isn't fair, and I detest the fact that people leave instead of stay and sort out problems.
My emotions constantly go full circle - I don't just forget and let go.
I feel as though I will never get anywhere.
I have been pushed too far.
I don't want to be here any more.
If my ex doesn't take me back, I have nothing to live for any more.
ocd is in my brain as well, and I wonder if there are other psychological problems that have been left unchecked that I don't know if they are there or not.
I just pray this dependent man is accepted back with his ex girlfriend again, otherwise I will continue to feel half suicidal.
Man up!
I will feel what I need to feel at the time to get me through.
I am a quirky character and that is who I am.
I am happy to be who I am.
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Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle,
and the life of the candle will not be shortened.
Happiness never decreases by being shared.
