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NcNbl
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22 Dec 2010, 11:40 am

I do not know if you know this site but I just want to let you know how far I’ve went trying to understand aspergers and you. You can click on my photo for my profile and these below. Those are the threads I authored; that’s what I’ve been up to and this is where I’m at lately, mostly on PM's. I do not know if you like or would approve of what I’m doing here and I apologize if you don’t..

An NT in love with an Aspie.. *pls help
How can one NT make one Aspie feel loved?
Could too much Honesty hurt an Aspie too?
I think I like Aspies
Anything you'd like to ask an NT?
I want to be an Aspergers Doctor
*consecutively

I could say I learned and had come to understand a lot better being here; and I actually even realized and discovered a lot about myself here too and made me understand myself a little better. And that’s all because of you; I wouldn’t have gone here if not for you and that makes me appreciate you so much more, even when everything I’ve already learned here made me like you so much.

And there are people here that greatly helped me out. And I have made good friends; there’s Shadi2 and JojoBean, then Katzefrau, Vector and CockneyRebel and lot of others that are all very nice and supportive of me, and they help me understand and help me get by with my sadness. They taught me a lot and I’ve learned a lot from them and they don’t even know it sometimes like they don’t know that what they said would actually help me a lot. They’re really cool! There are a lot of awesome people here and I wanna be able to help them back. You could see them from my post and you could see what I mean from those too. Yeah I really like aspies and/or people in this spectrum, I like this planet. I kinda got at home and I’m thankful for them.

So I had come to like aspies and that made me come to really love you. I just really wish I could or that you’d let me. I know it may become difficult as hell to be with you, but I still would want to than not have you at all. I could be okay in hell, it’s not like I’ve never been in any kind of hell before. If it’s hell, then it’s a hell of my choice. And I would like to spend my every single minute and every single calorie/joule I have to just find a way to make you feel how much I love you or at least just basically loved. And for me to feel this way means a lot to me because I never felt like this before; and it’s actually your fault.

You made me care, when I could just not. You made me feel insecure when I could just think I’m all that. You made me wanna protect and nurture, you made me want to be good when breaking others down and being bad could be so much fun. You made me feel when I didn’t or could choose not to feel anything. And that’s even before I’ve come to this planet, before I was aware how aspergers might be. You showed me my heart or self that I know I have now, and it’s to you that I want to give it to; but I really no longer know what to do to give it to you, I just wish you would take it.

So this is for Christmas.

This is my heart and its for you.

I love you..

*** Uhmm.. :oops: Hi guys! I just linked this to a letter for my aspie to show what I’ve been up to.. To those who know about it; Yup! Still not getting through.. Sad huh?! And it may take eons before this will be received and it also does not promise me a happily ever after but I’m just really in love. So please wish me luck, we all know I need it. It will be nice if you guys would believe with me. Sorry for crashing the forums with this though.. Hope you guys understand.. But hey, say hi to my love, and please tell him I love him and that I’m really a good boy, especially those who know.. Thank you.. :)


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22 Dec 2010, 9:54 pm

N.

That is so sweet. I hope he finds it and you two find your way back to each other as long as he dont run off again.

Kinda like running an I love you banner behind a plane...that is so brave of you to throw your heart out there like that. I hope he answers.


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22 Dec 2010, 10:25 pm

I think maybe you should put the bit you wrote at the bottom of your post explaining what this is at the top. I thought you were addressing me.


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23 Dec 2010, 1:35 am

Hi Jojo! Thanks..

I no longer know what i'm hoping for to happen anyway. i'm so lost i'd take any direction, but that's how i feel for my aspie; so i'm only taking the direction that i'd get from him. i'd stay lost if i have to.

And that will be one long *ss banner..

Hiya Moog!

Sorry, i knew it would have that effect.. Sorry but i kinda prioritized the continuity of the flow of my aspie's read than the clarity of my post for the people here.. anyway you could treat it as partially yours, you're an aspie. i said there how much i appreciate aspies, and you were nice to me too.. :)

*I know i just might have had opened myself to embarrassment, criticism or whatever else in doing this here, and that's something i would brave. :roll: Just have it as a piece of entertainment, that's all how i feel about myself anyway. :shrug:


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23 Dec 2010, 4:00 pm

Hello Nico :)

It is a beautiful message and it is very clear, I also agree with everything jojobean said.

And hello to you Nico's friend!

I do wish you a big sincere good luck.

... of course I had to look for plane banners pictures lol
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28 Dec 2010, 12:08 am

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5Wa6l6JvSw[/youtube]

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Thank you shadi.. the plane was cute.. hehe.. but anyway.. sigh..... :cry: still no him..


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28 Dec 2010, 2:39 am

NcNbl wrote:
Thank you shadi.. the plane was cute.. hehe.. but anyway.. sigh..... :cry: still no him..


sigh :(


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21 Jan 2011, 8:49 am

i love and miss you everyday especially when austrian hans takes and keeps you away..
but i'm very happy cuz you say you love me. there's no other world, no other place i'd rather be,
than with you my aspie.
. n_n

I fricken :heart: you, T!! ! :D

*and i miss you Shadi2 and jojobean!! and Hi everybody! i hope everyone's well.. :)


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31 Jan 2011, 2:01 am

You still sing this better.. :)
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8cVZuJP6YRU[/youtube]

i love you.. i miss you.. i hope you feel better..


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04 Mar 2011, 2:37 pm

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1XKSc8emCk[/youtube]


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16 May 2011, 10:27 pm

I'm not sure if you're ever gonna see this, or at least again, today.. but..

Happy Birthday to you and your sister..
May all your wishes and dreams come true..
I hope you are happy..


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