How to deal with my sexual psychological disorders?

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Thank you all for helping me in my first post here,which took place weeks ago.
I am looking for help.
I want to cure my SEVERE sexual psychological disorders.
Do you know any websites dedicated to these?
I definitely need help.

I guess you are referring to this thread.
http://www.wrongplanet.net/postp4321302 ... t=#4321302

Sounds like you have been conditioned to be guilt tripped and repressed by your religion, it doesn't seem healthy to deny that you are a human being with sexual needs, however that doesn't mean you have a disorder because you are shy to talk to women or that it's wrong to have a moral view towards it. I think you need to question why you are feeling how you are and what has lead you to feel a certain way.

Not like that.
I don't feel wrong about NORMAL sex.
I feel wrong about paraphilia,fetishism and worse.
I used to read REALLY EXTREME erotica.
I feel bad because I am like two persons.
One person is a righteous man who is kind and love people.
The other is a bad man who is at least as bad as Himmler and loves to hurt girls.
I usually use the name Joseph,not named after the Biblical Joseph ,but it is named after Joseph
Goebbels.I am definitely not a Nazi,I use this name because I am guilty of my DARK SIDE.

It has nothing to do with religion .

If you want,I might tell you what my paraphilia is,which is more extreme than what you,and any society in the world can accept.
My paraphilia is banned in some countries such as Britain.
I admitted that I hated girls in my childhood,maybe because of paranoia.
I even dreamed about killing girls until I reached puberty.
That is my dark side,which I never admit until several monthes ago.
(I am definitely not trolling.
It is true.
I admitted this for the first time in my life on love-shy.com,which banned me
because they thought that I was trolling.)
I still have trouble with females now.
If I only love normal sex,masturbation about normal sex,porn about normal sex and things like that,I would not be worried about this.

Any psychiatrist here?

If there are psychiatrists or people who know some psychology,please PM me.
Thanks.
I want to be a righteous man,not two opposite persons.

Could you make your fetish consensual? There are some women who really get off on men hurting them.

It is not good.
Those women also need help,just like me.
They also live in misery.
I'm not interested in this kind of fetish,but a more severe variant of it.

Actually the origins of my fetish is not like other people.
As I admitted before,I used to hate girls in my childhood,especially beautiful ones.
I couldn't fall asleep easily,so I tend to think.
I used to dream of killing girls and stopping them from harming "humanity"(men) in my childhood.
That is an essential part of my childhood,just like fairies to others.
I am a geek and love math,physics,chemistry since I was young.
I thought of using high-tech to protect myself from "evil girls".
It dreamed like this for eight years.
Those dreams affect me a lot.
For example,I still use some details from those dreams as usernames and passwords.
I sometimes call myself Mr.Alesensky,who is a major character in one of those dreams.
Those dreams,although extreme and hateful,also contains physics,chemistry,geography ,careful planning,brotherly love and other positive things.
I just don't want to get rid of all of them,but they must be purged of its evil parts.
Now I am thinking of starting to talk with females in my college next semester,which will begin weeks later.
Maybe it could curb the long-term evil.

You need to definitely seek professional help or a local psychiatrist. Remember, thoughts and dreams are simply that, they don't have to be a core part of your identity or actions if you can separate yourself from them. Perhaps find an outlet for your desires, many people have dreams or visions that might not be pleasant, expressing it through art or a creative outlet may be a good way to help.