Are you new to dating, enamoured, but worried about failing?

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I am 20. I have been diagnosed w/ AS for about 2 years. This is the first time I am reaching out on a public forum. I have used 1 on 1 therapy, but I think this particular topic is best suited for a wide spectrum of opinions. I will keep this posting short and concise, while giving a little background:

I started dating a NT about a month ago. She is beautiful, intelligent, and funny. That's the problem. I feel like I am too clingy and miss her too much. And when she says anything vaguely self-effacing it makes the pit of my stomach curl up. I feel like because I have both AS, and I'm new to dating it makes me care too much. I also have problems with mind-blindness. I will assume she is thinking the same thing as I am. For instance, when we caress and I feel uncomfortable, I can't help but think she feels the same. I asked her if she felt uncomfortable one time, and she answered, No.

These are nitpicky things that perhaps any NT, or some people with AS would overlook without a second thought, but for me they are very troubling.

How can I deal with the fear of screwing up my new relationship, and accepting myself for who I am? Thanks in advance.

-LAJ

As a high note, instead of worrying about screwing up all the time, think that she loves you for who you are and that if you open up then she will know the real you rather than acting as someone you are not.
Trust me, love can be hard for a lot of people for various reasons.

I'm not worried about "failing". I'm worried about finding a problem.

I reckon I'm worried about finding a problem too. In light of this. I should let her love me for who I am. I neglected to tell you that I've been open to her about EVERYTHING. But PastFixations is right. There is not much I can do short of letting the relationship run its course.