I love someone who is aspie, but my aspie-ness got in the way before I realized I was aspie. Now that I understand what it is, I know why it didn't work. Both of us had on our "NT" faces with each other. When the meltdowns came (not at the same time) from holding it for too long, we thought that it was time to leave. The other person wasn't happy. Now we just keep interpreting everything negatively.
How do I turn this around? We lasted for 5 months and I can't get him out of my head. He opened up my world and changed my life without even knowing it. I did tell him I was aspie, but maybe he might be fully autistic. I know his is more severe than mine. But I don't know if he really cares about me enough to let me in. He has alcohol problems too.
It is enough that he would still be my friend and he has told me he would be. But we could be so much more. He is the only man that can give me enough space to be myself. He also has no expectations from me other than that. He accepted me for who I am. As I did him. Until my meltdown. (I wonder if he knows about meltdowns)
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My whole life has been an exercise in original thinking. While I was looking in vain for the answers in books, I found them within myself.