hey everyone x
how are you all?
hope you are all well and also hope your love lives are all far less complicated than mine!
having a few probs in that area wanted some advice.
There this girl i really like, and im not sure if we are "togther" or not....
we met a few months ago at one of those silly self esteem theapy groups and hit it off right away . Then as some of you may know , i was in hospital for a few months so didint see her for a while. (she was also dating a friend of mine how was/is an alcholic and abusive) but she got my number through a mutrual friend and we started spending more time togther ,more time turned into almost everyday and after lots of wine one night we slept togther .
she asked me in the morning "would you have done that if you were sober" ( lukily i am sober alot more these days!) and i truthully said that i would.
no more was said on the subject but next time i saw her the same happend ..and the next... and the next... well think you get the picture lol,
we now spend all our time togther , and do all things i assume couples would do ( meals out, love making ,kissess and cuddles etc)
But we kind of skrited round the "asking out" process.
However in this time she also go wasted and slept with someone else and unknown to her , so did I
(mostly cos i knew she had and i was joules-silly i know)
I bit the bullet a couple of days ago and asked her out , she went into a hystical giggling fit, and changed the subject-but we made love agian that night and we always say "love ya" at the end of a call and she does too.
she is also an aspie and also has BPD and pyscotic depression , but i want to be with her so much i dont care
though i am a little worried it might leed to complictions .
confusing huh? is she my girlfriend? do we really need that label? ( i hate having the label "bisexual" attached to me , but guess i am lol ) are we mutally exclisve? I dont know... auggghhhhhh :s
have tried talking about it with her but she finds it really hard to express her feelings and talk about such things .
And advice guys? bieng with her makes me very happy but its such a godarm headfuck!!!1
love y'all <3
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<3 grayson George Urry <3 05/10/2011
love you always my beautiful boy xxxx
26 Jan 2012, 7:39 am
