is this normal or unusual and related to aspergers?

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to be my age and still being unable to attract or charm a woman? im 27 and have been posting here since i was 22 years old 6 years now. i was complaining then and doing it now. when i was a child i was sexually abused by my father and his girlfriend. i was diagnosed with aspergers at 14. i have never been able to achieve and accomplish what i want with a girl. women dont seem to find me attractive. when i ask them out they get offended or they avoid me. i always thought it was a racial thing since im ethiopian by nationality. ive seen asperger guys get gfs and get laid and have families. i have a lot of depression and constant stress i take care of my mother she had a stroke during heart surgery 3 years ago and is disabled because of it and she cant speak. i had problems before that as well . when i first started posting here i would always drink alcohol to numb my pain. i just dont know what to do anymore . i have been locked up for attempting to kill myself in the past aka 5150. later on i started smoking marijuana and that made me want to kill myself even more and harm others. i am not proud of the life i have led and am constantly being haunted by my past. growing up with aspergers for me has been a curse.

sexually im very frustrated any time i see women in bars and in public dressed up i just want to touch them rub their thighs feel their flesh . i just wish i didnt feel this way and that theres this monster inside me most aspergers guys ive met were all different i know one thats gay hes a friend has problems with people and finding bfs. another guy is straight and works in a hospital making 3000 a month and driving a car but cant seem to attract women i dont know whats wrong with me ive attempted to ask out so many different girls in high school i got made fun of and was considered a social outcast and a freak i got bullied in hs to a point that i wanted to start my own columbine.