Constantly scared.

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So, I'm 20 and just found out I have Asperger's. Not a huge shock I guess. I missed a ton of school, still did fine despite that, but only had a couple of legit girlfriends during that time. I've been with a few others since then, and every single time I find myself terrified the person I'm dating will leave me or cheat. Some of that is just from past experiences being hurt, but Its something that happens every single time. I just cant seem to be content. I constantly worry about the future and weather or not I'll be alone in it. Anyone else have similar problems? and as a side-note, anyone out there in NB Canada? :3

Yes, I do worry that I will be alone because of my fear of dating people and discontent with relationship experience myself. My biggest fear however is dying an unhappy man.

some jejune thoughts from an old aspie fart-
most of my life i had tremendous free-floating anxiety, gobs of existential angst about my basic survival. most of my young adult life i had to struggle just to keep a roof over my head. even when i finally lucked into an entry-level middleclass job in the civil service, i still worried about unemployment and homelessness. when i was dx'ed with high blood pressure, i received a script for a beta blocker which got rid of all that. so the drug was one that had good side fx. for people with free-floating anxiety in addition to hypertension, they may be a useful drug. at least a semblance of happiness has a better chance of slipping in unnoticed, with the bulk of the angst out of the way.

24 here. I have the same worries and fears. I spent ages 15-22 in long-term relationships. Since the dramatic end of that period of my life, I've been focusing on taking care of myself and creating a space in which to be comfortable, nurtured and happy, and that's gone quite well, but I seem to be no longer capable of dating. I tried it a couple of times in the past few years, and every time it's been a ridiculous sort of fiasco of awkwardness, halting sentences and jumbled thoughts that deteriorated within 3 months. It's definitely a debilitating fear of intimacy, based on past experiences. I am also constantly afraid that I will be left by the wayside, or cheated on.

I don't really worry about being alone in the future, but I think that's because I've made a concerted effort to be ok with being alone... though sometimes I still do get quite lonely. Maybe my lack of fear in that department is also based on the fact that I don't think about the future very much. If I do find myself legitimately alone someday, I will probably get a dog. If I then still feel a need to become friends with a human, I will go to dog parks and meet people. Or I will join a community league, like ultimate frisbee or something. Failing that I will move to a bigger city and find some weirdos to hang out with.

Also, I live in NB, Canada! What are the odds? You should PM me!

Sorry it took so long D: but i sent you a pm