Holding Back the Act of Desperation (or Vince's little Rant)

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With this upcoming 4th semester of college, it feels as if the chances of me trying to find a potential girlfriend are slowly starting to dwindle down as I get set for the real world soon. Idk, there's always a part of me that wants to openly go and try to find someone during breaks in between classes as well as after I am done with the school day, but the only thing that seems to be stopping me from doing so is myself. I can't break my usual habits of going to my classes, hanging out with the same little group of friends and going back to my apartment to sit around...

I am not the social maniac, but I know a lot of people, but god damnit I can't wrench out the balls to talk to a woman, I keep making up excuses and I'm putting myself in a place where everything just shuts down and I become a robot!

I feel as if I am trying too little and trying to hard at the same time by not building up the confidence to do anything. I've never approached a woman and asked her out to anything, I've had bad luck with women left and right and I can't break the f*****g mental barriers no matter how hard I throw the hammer at the barrier!

I can't win, I can't succeed in this aspect of my life and it's driving me insane! No matter how much I try to get the thoughts out of my head by occupying myself, they always seem to come back and I know that these are thoughts that cannot be eliminated from my mind. I just wish that these thoughts wouldn't drive me insane to the point where I'm holding back desperation.