What is wrong with me?!

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What is wrong with me?!
I am an a**hole.
My girlfriend broke up with me yesterday. In case that I have been lying for a long time. I am sycho and when the things between us get worse i tried to find my place. So started to chat with other girls and acting like a other person. I got to far with this. I manipulated everyone there. I was more and more alone. And when i get better my girlfriend this on facebook. She hates me now. We've together for 2 and half year. And I ruined everything. I want to bring her back and start to be normal. Stop lying, manipulating others, stop being like a movie characters and makes she trust me again. I am not seeing another girls but I'm chatting. I am a**hole. Please help me. It's too late but I love her so much. She is the one. I do everything, wait eternity. I found it too late.

Did she find out how you impersonating people and chatting with girls online? Why did you feel the need to chat with girls online? Even if you have problems in the relationship, you should not resort to that bad habit. If something is wrong, you must try and communicate. I don't know what has caused the upset of your girlfriend. But I think you should apologize and tell her how much she means to you and you must be willing to give up the online girl chats.

You're 19 and chatting up other girls online, somehow I doubt it.

yes, she found out that I chatting with the others girls, sometimes I said that that look nice. I tried to be I don't know cool or something. My girlfriend is very jaelous. I love ther bo i was lying for three months.
Now she doesnt talk to me. I wrote to the others cause It was easier to me to pretend to be an ass*** than be yourself. I have a problems with distinguishing reality and my thoughts. Lastly I grew up, started be normal, and I fist read others feelings. But it go wrong, probably I dont logged out on purpose. I dont know why. My conscience ... I want to start from begining. How I could be romantic? Nice? Make her trust.
People always went away cause I manipulated them, or I wanted to go away. I really now want to make real relationship. But I screwed up.

Okay, so at least you admit you were wrong to have done all that. Does she know you have aspergers. Have you told her what you just wrote, that you have issues with reality and fake? You should really be honest with her now if you truly want forgiveness, but she really deserves the explanation. As long as you are willing to stop all the negative things you have done and truly want to correct it, then you should apologize and explain what happened and how you feel towards her. But, remember, she might not forgive you, so don't keep hopes up that she may return.

I was chatting to upset her. I dont talk to other girls not online. I dont like people.
Before our problems I wasnt doing it. I don't need others. Chatting makes more sad than happy. I found out this when my friend tells me he is unhappy, like me cause he always pretending. I don't want other girls. I want her. I want be alone with her next to me.

So you did it for attention? Actually a lot of cheating occurs due to that reason. You should definately tell her hte reason you did it was to get her attention for you. But that still doesn't excuse what you did and all. I hope things work out well for you.

I don't diagnosed. But I have several aspie traits. I tried to explain but she doesnt believe me. I wouldl try to change her mind. Show her that I changed, that I care about her and I that I deserve for a little chance. But I really don't know what to do? I am not good in fixing relations with others.

Did you try writing out a letter? How long have you guys been apart for?

Probably for the attention. I don't like girls with who I was chatting. I get to far in several words, but it was not flirting. They knew I dont want anything.
I get lost in my lies

My lies,are to realistic... I,describe another me in messages.. Bad for she but for another reasons...

Why a letter? I have never written any. All starts getting worse three months ago. And it was getting harder and harder... she lost her job, term exams and other stressing activities.
One person I know adviced me writing a letter and I don't know.

Well a letter is a good alternative if she refuses to hear you talk orif she won't hear you talk because she might be too angry. Just write out your honest feelings on the letter. Unless she does want to hear your explanations, then you can say it face-to-face then. In addition is she NT? Typically NT girls usually want a "show" of affection as in gift buying or in anything that represents effort that the other person cares enough to get forgiveness.

I know how you feel. My ex girlfriend left me too, and I still miss her. sadly, when it's over, it over. I've try get backing my ex 3 times
and she never took me back. good luck.

There are bunches of women out there. And, a lot of nice autistic babes. I always adjust to being single before getting another girlfriend. Once you've been through a few cycles, it's not horrible at all. You will be absolutely fine in a short time.

That said, I'd get away from dishonesty. People become the way they speak and behave, so be honest. However, you can be wise in what you tell and how much you tell. Good luck!

If your in a relationship and love someone, your not talking to other women.