I don't know what I want, so I'm thinking - halfway?

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Hello

I'm single and I've always been single. However for ages now I've had this longing for, believe it or not since I have AS, intimacy with a young woman. At first I thought: casual relationship/NSA fun but then I began to doubt that, thinking that that wouldn't be a full enough experience. Maybe it's because I'm over 25 I don't know. The thing is though, even before I was diagnosed I knew that a full serious relationship would be too much pressure and stress for me to cope with. So just within the past few years I've started thinking that a "halfway" relationship would be suitable. By halfway I mean a light-hearted full relationship where there wouldn't be any pressure, both people would be happy just to be in each other's company and finally that the relationship wouldn't have to go any further than the point where it started to be too much. Would this be a good idea for autistic people who feel they aren't cut-out for a full-on relationship?

My last relationship was like that.
It only lasted for three months, but it was really nice.
Eventually though, he broke up with me because I don't want to produce babies.
Things went well until then, however.
He was an Aspie, which probably helped too (because other than the babies thing, we seemed to be very on the same wavelength).

Forget about halfway, what you need is someone that you are really compatible with, that understands you and makes an effort to help you understand them.
It is perfectly possible to have a relationship with someone that will be your best friend, lover, partner, confidante and the person you want to spend most of your time with.
You just need to be open to meeting new people, be honest about your expectations, and focus on intellectual and emotional compatibility, rather than focus on aesthetics as first priority.

What worked for me was internet dating.
I met my wife via online dating, and we've been together for 9 years, married for over 6 years.
The beauty of online dating is you can communicate as long as you both want, as often as you both want, to make sure you "click" before you meet.
For me that was a godsend, and I still email and text my wife daily, as I find communicating some things easier this way, even though we live together and are the first and last person each of us speak to each day.

What you need is to find someone that accepts you for who you are, and to learn to accept yourself the same way.
You will never meet the perfect person, but if you can find someone you find attractive and it's more than just physical, then you've found the basis for a worthwhile long term relationship.
Aspies are perfectly capable of finding and having a long term relationship with someone they find attractive, it's just a deeper and different kind of relationship to what most NT's have - and for that reason I think it's even better because it's more meaningful.