I'm 16, and I'm friends with a 7th grader girl, who right now is my only friend, and even then, my mother is making it difficult by refusing to acknowledgeb that she is my friend and refuses to let us visit one another ( I can only see her at my mosque. ) I often lay in bed with my pillow and make out with it, and say romantic things to it while pretending it's my friend Amina, and I even imagine that she's with me as I go about my daily life... I also have fantasies of kissing her, but I think I'm just desperate because shes my only friend and I only have 4 classmates in my alternative school who are all problem students and thus have less potential for friendship, and because she's the only girl I know at the moment besides some I only know to exist. (My school is all boys). How to tell if I'm in love, and even if I am, is that bad due to her age?