6 year breakup in the worst possible way.

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So, over the past year I have discovered Asperger traits within myself after my grandmother passed, it was subtle but the emotional blow of the event really triggered a chain reaction that made me lost my ability to properly function like i have for many years. I lived overseas in Asia for 17 years and went to an international school, having little to no friends there and moved to Las Vegas to have the same events occur. I only really had one friend and that was my boyfriend of 6 years. Ive done everything for him. I shared my car, my home and even paid to move him to a new city, I really loved him and he helped me cope with reality far more than anyone I knew. As with any couple, we would have our arguments and such but what ended this relationship was both of us ending up in Jail. He always had a bad drunk personality and I always knew it wasn't really him yet that night, but he attacked me, called me horrible names, made fun of my depressive state (Due to the overwhelming world around me) and just straight up tried to emotionally scar me. I had to pull over for he was physically attacking me and he ended up with scratches on his arm from me defending myself.

To make a long story short, I just feel completely lost. I spent the past 30 days by myself trying to make new friends, go out or keep myself busy. Yet during those 30 days, he didn't bother apologizing in person. just over texts.

Ive been having endless emotional meltdowns over this and Im not really in a good place. Any tips on dealing with strong emotions of feeling used, abused and such would be greatly appreciated.

He knew my depressive states, my lack of friends and even my disorder. I just don't understand how anyone can be so cruel to someone who helped them change their life...

sorry for the rant.
I just don't think I can keep this to myself anymore, my mother won't even believe my aspergers traits and just aggravates my depressive state. I just feel like the whole world is out to get me and its somewhat frightful.



I just feel so invisible in all this. I don't even feel human :[ All I wanted after the ordeal was a hug, and I wouldn't have mind or got so emotional... But Ive been alone for 30 days and I can't do it anymore. Im so lonely.

I'm sorry to hear about your break up. Keep posting here if it helps you deal with the emotions. Being just 30 days out, I imagine the feelings are still very overwhelming. It's going to get better though.

Wow, I just went through a breakup with my gf of 6 years too (her choice, couldn't deal with my ASD anymore) and so much you said hits home. My parents also refuse to acknowledge diagnosed ASD as well. If you need someone to talk to feel free to message me. I have no problem just listening and helping.

Thank you. So far it's been a month and a week now and the feelings are still there. Yet during the 30 days I found out he was partying and having the time of his life without me, basically forgotten just like everyone else I knew. I'm comfortable being by myself yet talking to myself is starting to become a norm since I don't really communicate verbally that much anymore.


How are you handling all of this??

I'm handling it OK, I guess. It's been about a month for me too. At night I feel the most sad and I am a bit depressed. My x gf was partying a lot too before we broke up, but I knew she was, she was always honest about it. It still stinks though, sorry you are in a similar cruddy situation. Have you found anything that helps you feel any better?

To be honest, the nights are the hardest for me too. The silence allows me to think clearly and sometimes in a negative way that really effects my mood. other than that its just watching the time fly by. So far the only thing that makes me feel better are the games I would play but they always were there. I just want to get back out into the world but it just seems so daunting.

I feel for you. To be honest I can't imagine how you feel because I had never been harrassed or attacked both physically and verbally in a serious romantic relationship. My ex and I broke up after a year because I felt we just didn't have much in common and long term wise it wouldn't work, but she treated me really nice and we had fun together. We parted in really good terms, surely not all the hell you're going through. I never was in jail - it sounds REALLY scary.

I can't grasp how a man, (or a woman for that matter, there are abused men) can just abuse or do something bad to his girl unconsently.

By they way, funny and not romantic relationship related, My band just kicked me out. Long story short, we didn't see eye to eye and the whole atmosphere during rehersals was absolutely horrific. So after we parted after fighting and bashing in our whatsapp group, they asked me to apologize but I'm not the one to get punched and turn my other cheek for a rebound.