I feel too unconfident to try get a girlfriend?

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I'm really worried about my situation when it comes to love and relationships, and my confidence about them. I'm 20 year old male still a virgin, and I just wonder if this is seen as atypical today. I feel like I'm wasting away with watching erotic content even though I enjoy it. I wonder what being loved feels like as the media talks nothing but the concept.
I think a big problem is I feel so disconnected from society and everyone and find it often difficult to relate to others. I am engrossed in my interests. Being a teenager at school was absolutely terrible and I didn't really have much social awareness so this impeded making friendships let alone an actual girlfriend. I grew up with same feelings as other guys being interested in girls, but it just felt like this invisible forcefield and being NTs they excelled with meeting girls, I just didn't know what to do.

Now a adult I still feel very different, but much worse about this. I am quite sensitive and not very confident in myself, or feel I have any personal identity. I don't have a job either, or drive or the many things males my age and up may be doing (I tried moving away to meet more girls my age but the experience of living away overwhelmed me) and I'm not that tall or physically well built either. I basically feel nobody will want to be with me because I have all these issues and problems, and I read so much about relationships is reading body language, a foreign language for me and other aspies alike. I tried dating websites but didn't receive messages back and as I've never dated anyone before I don't how to approach this or what to expect. I fall in love easily.

How do I start to get on track with this, especially if I've never been in a relationship before? I feel terrible about this, its probably hard being a NT to find someone let alone somebody with ASD.

I would appreciate any advice on this please. Thanks!