girlfriend breaking up with me

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Few months ago me and my best friend (who I know for almost 7 years) started going out. Everything seemed fine, she knows I'm a little awkward, shy and all that (I have always thought I'm just introverted and socially awkward but apparently I was diagnosed with mild AS when I was little and just didn't know that, always felt "normal" - I just found out while learning about aspies and it sounded a lot like me). But back to the topic: she knows I'm not really a relationship material but asked me out to which I agreed (now she's worried she forced me to - not true) later she registered some communication issues (less funny topics then while friends, me less talkative and not telling her what I want - which I didn't) Also when we had sex I was very frigid and quiet and passive which gives out the impression that I'm not attracted to her (I am into her but don't have sexual urges and am awkward do you see my problem?) Aaand I have symptoms of depression and anxiety attacks which got worse at the time of our relationship (I even unwillingly started crying in front of her and panicked in the middle of kissing and I'm really embarassed for that) and I'm afraid she blames the relationship and herself for my problems while I blame myself for making her unhappy and sacrificing so much to be with me. Even if we break up we'll stay good friends but I still have the feeling of losing her, I want to be with her but if I'm not making her happy? What shall I do? Break up or try to keep her and how?
Thanks a lot for your help (and also sorry for the long text and possible errors (and possible double post) - english is not my first language and I'm new here)

I would give her a romantic card and flowers, and tell her how you feel about her.

Communication is key; tell her that you are (most likely) autistic/aspergian and explain the issues.
Be sure to include the recent issues the two of you encountered (like you being passive and awkward during sex) and tell her why this was the case.

as an aside, a first time sex is always awkward, especially if it is the first time at all (but it will still be for the first time with a new partner), so don't feel too bad

It kind of sounds like having a relationship, is too much for you...I mean if its upsetting you this much and you're having panic attacks over kissing. Maybe a friendship is better, I don't think its her fault or your fault though. I had a boyfriend in highschool when I was like 17 and as much as I liked the guy it was just too much stress to be in a romantic relationship I did try and remain friends with him but he was kind of bitter about not understanding why I couldn't just be his girlfriend so we ended up drifting apart. If you have been friends with your girlfriend since before though it may make it easier to continue the friendship since you guys knew each other in a non-dating sense beforehand.

I might add also, if it is too much for you right now it doesn't mean you'll never be able to handle it..I am in a good relationship now and feel much more able to handle the commitment and such.

I 2nd this but I'll also suggest that you tell her you'd like to take the relationship alittle slower because of your anxiety. Let her know you really like her & want to be in a relationship with her & explain to her that you want to work through your issues. You could also tell her you'd like to get help for your anxiety & depression if your willing to try getting help for it.
You could also do something for her like kraftiekortie said to show her that you like her & are trying.