how is an aspie like me meant to win under these conditions

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im 19, cant work because of depression and anxiety and aspergers and all that fun stuff, and you cant get a girl whether thats a relationship or a one night thing without having a profession, even when i did have a profession getting girls was impossible, i believe the crushing s**t depression feeling i get a lot is primarily to do with me not being able to achieve sex and love. i was in love once with a girl that ended rather terrible (aspergers written all over), anyways we weren't even in a relationship or anything just infatuation on my part, now im at this age where i know people with below par social skills are looked down upon by neurotypical a**holes making everything even worse, i literally cant even bring myself to message a girl because its just not worth it, but the other half of me knows that im a male who wants sex and love because i somehow know thats going to be happy and fun. i really have no idea what to do, i have friends that have jobs and sex and relationships regularly like they were meant to be able to do that stuff, does it only get worse? ive been lying to everyone about my intimate life because being 19 and a virgin with no experience is very looked down upon the neurotypical a**holes who run this world. i also use mdma is that correlates, the feeling of mdma is pretty 10/10. i just really hate this world, its really unfair for some people. i never asked to have a disability meaning you live your life almost normal but without all the fun bits

It sounds like you're doing better than you think

There are 19 year old people with NO friends whatsoever.

I went through similar things at 19. I had an on and off relationship.

What do you really like to do?

Truthfully, it's not as cut and dry as all that. Your friends are probably to some extent about how "lovely" their relationships are, or how much sex they are "getting."

If you feel a commonality with a girl, by all means text her. You don't have to tell anybody you have Asperger's.

i dont really like anything tbf, i go to the gym and smoke weed but thats just beneficial for me, life is just totally unfair with aspergers, its like you're born and then someone puts a curse on you meaning you wont get girls, jobs or lots of money and youll live your life wishing itll change and it just wont, i dont care that these other people can get these things but i do care that i cant, not having a job at this age is enough for everyone to look down on you let alone having bad social skills and other asperger flaws, theres this 1 situation that gets to me too much, when i go to this friends house, every so often theres this girl there that isnt even all that, and she makes herself seem better than me like how NTs do but the NT acceptable way and shes always known ive liked her and its just the shittiest feeling ever, shes literally using my own disability to make herself seem better. and everyone does it, i can accept i cant get girls, i can accept my life is pretty s**t, but i just cant stand the fact people use my disability against me like its normal all the time, its like if you're not NT then you're a weirdo and not welcome to do NT jobs and have NT females

I've seen jobless people get girls. Attracting women is primarily based on your social ability and status, if you can manage making friends you aren't too far off.
Improve your looks and go from there.

Its not about winning. Its about finding a compatible partner. I know an average guy who married the hot girl. He got divorced because she wouldn't tolerate any of his hobbies.

There are girls who aren't NT and also NT girls that don't really fit in and are 'weirdos' that would probably be more understanding of where you're coming from and less likely to judge you for not being 'normal' enough.

Also I think quality over quantity is a better thing to focus on. You have plenty of time you could meet someone you really click with and form a meaningful relationship...someone that matters isn't going to look down you for not having slept with 50-100 different girls in meaningless one night stands or short lived relationships.

I'm an Aspie who doesn't work cuz of physical disabilities(thou I have worked before) & been through bad depression & anxiety before. I managed to find a girlfriend who's also on the spectrum & has anxiety & depression along with fibromyalgia. One of the things that helped me was trying to overcome my depression & anxiety. I joined forums, posted alot & worked on myself as best I could which wasn't easy & I came off as a narcissistic troll to some members. I learned & grew in the process thou. I realized support was a huge help to me & I wanted a partner who would help support me as I would help support her & I started looking for women that had issues. I figured they'd be more accepting & understanding than typical NTs & I figured I could be useful to them by being supportive & I eventually met my girlfriend by posting aLOT on this forum about it. My advice would be try to work on yourself as best you can. For example see a counselor & a psychiatrist if your not seeing them & are able to but it's important to also do your own research on meds for ideas about what to try & posting on forums can help you analyze & sort things out & you may even meet a a girl on the forum. Joining offline support groups for depression &/or anxiety might help you too(it helped me some) & maybe you could meet a girl there.

You are not; if the conditions are against you, either change the field or change the conditions.

In your case; i'd first stop the mdma and reduce the weed to the bare minimum (only in the worst of moods), if not kill that completely as well.

Your biggest problem is despiration, you are convinced that being without experience at 19 is a big problem and are set to change that.
This gets seen be girls and women: you give off the feel that you only want the experience of sex without a relationship attached (whether this is true or not is irrelevant).

First order of business: take in the information that 19 isn't "too late" by any means, a lot of the guys that brag about their experience are doing just that: bragging, i won't be surprised when half of them haven't gone further than kissing either.

After you get this internalized; pick yourself up, try to feel neutral ("good" isn't needed yet, aim for "not bad") without chemical aid. Hitting the gym is a good way to do this.

3rdly: focus on making friends first, just friends, and try to have a few female ones. Perhaps something happens with them, perhaps they got a friend, perhaps nothing happens. Worst-case, you are now more experienced in speaking to people in general and woman in particular.

When you set out to get sex, you will not get it unless you are a master of social skills, which you (evidently) are not. Treat sex as the reward for a healthy relationship, not as the reason to enter in one.


Ps. If you really feel that you need that experience: buy it. just dont do so trough craigslist