I am successful person in career ambitions, traveling, politics, sports, welfare and that but not successful in dating and finding a relationship. Its too difficult when the mainstream society overtakes peoples' minds on making stereotypes. I have met lot of women both with ASD and NT here. They rarely understand me despite I am very intelligent person with high IQ and very career driven educated mind. I talk make sense with people. I get along with the people working in government because of other intelligent minds and talking making sense but they are way older than me like twice of my age. I seem couldnt get along with people at my age (I'm 26). Most of my friends are in their 20s. They seem very confusing people in my mind.
They frustrate and make me so jealous of their actions. They get dates, relationships and sex so super easy than I try and get nothing but rejections and friend zoned. I never approach to be creepy or weird to anyone I am smarter than that. I just couldn't understand why lack of empathy from people within my age. I am a late bloomer because of this, since I was bullied badly in high school and been mocked terribly during college because no one understand me. More recently people make lot of prejudice against me because of my Autism and hearing loss. I tried to help people to understand but they denied and refuse making time. They seem so lost in their lives of what they are doing.
Lot of people including my friends I know make rebound relationships, get stressed and cranky within themselves, drinking partying a lot at same time and that. I rarely get along and socialise with friends because I am different than their own friends who are 'same' to themselves. I go to Meetup.com events, local social sports events competition, involved in politics and community awareness groups especially for environment and disabilities. I met hundreds and hundreds of women out of those groups whilst I enjoy so much time of meeting people with similar values and passions. I couldnt get connected with people. I am not shy nor anxious. I am approachable hence I go to Meetup.com events independently.
I turned 26 this year, and this makes me more sadder because of becoming so late bloomer like those people who have no efforts compared to myself I made a lot of efforts. I have straightforward career life and I am fine with that. I always wanted to have a girlfriend and eventually get married and a family. So why there so much challenging especially out of people including my own friends who kept themselves dont understand me? It seems the society and media influence is killing our minds and making me not a normal person. Hence I get left out of romance.
Life is unfair, and thoughts of killing myself last year because loneliness is terrible and lack of empathy and lack of romance is hurting my feelings so badly like I lost to friends with suicide over peer pressure. I have done so much effort in my life like approach a women, make friends with her and ask her out. That repeat many times but not every single women I met in my life. I tried dating websites. I tried speed dating. Nothing is working.
This leaves to me it seems I am not attractive person. I am fit, clean, healthy, 5'11 and open minded guy. I have been a role model many times but women dont see me attractive at all for some weird assumption reason.
