Tigerfire, I hope you won't mind me saying this... I don't know you in real life, so all I can go on is what you say in your posts, so I can only create perceptions in my mind about you that may or may not be true.
You do seem quite scarily intense to me. And a bit manic/hyper. You say other people have suggested you calm down, but then you post the most un-calm, streams of consciousness, jumping from thought to thought posts, which smack of desperation in tone. You also seem to have exhibited some mildly stalker-ish obsessive behaviour.
Now you may be a perfectly nice person in real life, but online, the way your persona comes across... well, alarm bells are ringing. I find you quite scary.
I'm just being honest, that's the impression that you give me.