Relationships are hard sometimes

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Just that really.

Been through enough tough times to know that this is a storm that can be weathered. But sometimes it is just so blimming tough to find the way back home.

When things are good people don't make each other feel fettered. They are each other's anchor but don't weigh eachother down. They breathe life into eachother's dreams and have the confidence and security to let the other person follow their passions however far away it might take them knowing they will return.

It is just hard when there is not enough time and energy to go around and everything is a fight for self survival. Survival against the necessities of life, work, family, unavoidable commitments, survival from utter mind numbing exhaustion.

It feels like we are all out of oxygen.

Perhaps it is the fact that I only got 2 hrs sleep.

Go to bed already!

I'm in bed. AWAKE AND WIRED! Last night when I tried to sleep it felt like my whole spine was being electrocuted and my heart kept racing like crazy. I assume it was some kind of panic like thing because I was so tired but couldn't fall asleep.

Yes, relationships are hard.

What relaxes me is watching old sports games on YouTube.

Ok, between this reply and your reply on my other thread I think you got it spot on!

I sat at the opera for 3 hrs late last night with my 8 year old aspie girl. One of her special interests is opera. It was amazing and really a fun night out for us but I have to remember it is not me who loves opera. I need to find some time to feed my interests too. They are just as important. I think I am feeling saturated as I spent the last 6 months reading about autism, doing all the ground work for the assessment process for my daughter, getting her though the stress of the assessment process and the aftermath and setting up better provisions at school to then going straight to wondering about whether I am also autistic. Of course that is fairly full on. And as much as I love my daughter and admire her and she is my favourite person in the whole world, she (and her needs) can't and shouldn't be MY sole special interest - I need to go back to carving out some time to nurture myself now. Thanks! I get it now.