Drunken Corrispondance

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Bloody hell, this is a doosey. I have drunkenly sent this off to a friend/unrequited love, lets hear what you guys think.
Well... I have to predicate this with the fact that I'm drinking. Sometimes drinking is the only way I ever express myself. I can't really explain why I am the way I am, except possibly point you toward wrongplanet.net which is a support site for people like me. I can't always explain my feelings, or show them at all. I'm bad at eye-contact, and I am unbelievably shy at times. I guess that's why I have to explain myself this way. I've been nothing but aloof and distant since the day we met, and for that I'm sincerely sorry. There's no way to soften what I'm about to say, and a softened version wouldn't really have the same truth. I have been crazy about you since the day we met. You are the most beautiful, talented, amazing person I've ever met, and that has ALWAYS terrified me. I knew every time I saw you, I'd be too scared to ever tell you how I felt, and I'd cry myself to sleep once more. How do you go to dinner with someone you love, knowing they'll never know. How do you work with them on a music project knowing that you want to tell them, and that's all you can think of. How can you face someone, after they've seen you as a friend, when you've always wanted to be more. I got horribly jealous of the guy your were talking to that night at the Martini Ranch, and that's when I knew that I couldn't be the friend you deserve. I don't want to be that sad, depressing friend you only can stand once in a while. I knew that moment I'd become that person if I continued the way things were going. So I stopped. I stopped responding to your texts, I avoided seeing you at all costs. In fact, I stopped being a friend at all. I knew what I was doing, but unfortunately it was my only option. I won't be able to make it out to see you tomorrow night, and I've been such a worthless friend that I don't even know where you're going from this "going away party." I hate to tell you all this now, but I felt you needed to know why I've been such an incomprehensible ass. In final I would like to tell you one thing, I love you.

Wow. Well done for writing that. I couldn't tell you what her response would be. Although it is full on it is probably something you needed to do.

Wow...that certainly is truthful and not put softly...your right.
I'm not sure what kind of response you will get. It will either be a "I forgive you" kind of response or a "stop making excuses for your actions" kind at my best guess.
I can say though, that it certainly sounds like something that was "spilled from the heart"...which is fantastic.

That's sweet. No matter what, she won't respond for a few days. Even if she's not interested it'll take her awhile to digest all that and decide what to do.

You'll either get a "That's nice, whatever" responce, or "Ohhh! He loves me too!" responce. Unfortunatly it doesn't take an aspie to figure out which is more likely.

*keeping my fingers crossed*

Well, I know she's having a going away party tonight. I don't know where she's going. I'm not really even hoping for the "I love you too" response, I am really just hoping for a bit of understanding. She's been very angry at me many times because I was avoiding her. I could never tell her why, and so it just continued. I've been avoiding her much worse lately, and so after not seeing her or talking to her for over a month now, I needed to let her know. I didn't want her thinking it was because I dislike her, or because I was angry.

I hate to say it, but I've done something extremely similar, and your chances of a positive response (no matter what it is) are extremely low. Chances are this would push her away further, and scare her. This is coming my my personal experience, but everyone's different.