I feel like a robot

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I know people aren’t robots but I am much closer to being a machine than every NT I know. Most of the time it feels like I don’t care about things that most people care about, such as social lives and having fun and partying. I am much more concerned with things such as reading, doing homework, and learning things about my special interests. When I do have feelings they are almost always negative emotions in the form of depression and anger. I have a hard time feeling sorry people other then myself for some reason. I’m slow in picking up give and take relationships, as well as reading peoples emotions as long as it isn’t fairly obvious how they are feeling.

I know this is going to really sound bad but please bear with me. I feel like I’m not even interested in traditional relationships with women anymore. I feel like I’m only going after women for occasional sex to satisfy my urges. There are a few reasons for this; the biggest reason is that I know I’m not socially mature enough to handle a real relationship. Like I said earlier, I’m slow with understanding give and take relationships. I also know I wouldn’t be able to satisfy a women socially because I don’t like to go out and party and socialize with others. I guess going to an occasional movie wouldn’t be too bad, but that wouldn’t be enough for most women I’m sure. Another reason for this is I wouldn’t know what to do with a girlfriend even if I had one. Even simple one-on-one conversations would take time for me to get comfortable with, and it would take very patient women to give me that much time before being freaked out by me.

I know that society wouldn’t conform to what I want in this case, nor do I expect it to. I’m just saying that I legitimately feel different then everyone else I know. Feel free to disagree with how I feel about this, but please do not attack me. Please refrain from calling me a troll because I’m being serious about this, and I want your serious feedback about it. Also, please don’t say I hate women, because despite my negative experiences with them, I really don’t hate them. I admit I don’t understand them, (and NT males quite frankly) but I don’t hate anybody.

Thank you.

So what's the problem with robots? I'm saving money for the day when they can install an artificial intelligence and self-propulsion into a RealDoll.

Hmm, doesn’t seem like too many others on here relate to this. Maybe I’m just a selfish a-hole then.

We are all robots, but only very few are aware of it.

I hate it when the first reply is a complete quote of the original text. I have to read it twice (not that I do, but it's like deja vu.

I sometimes feel like a machine-creature too (hence my username and avatar.) Romance and intimacy are almost completely alien to me. Creepy, isn't it?

I can relate to a lot of what you're saying. I don't feel any of the enjoyment or excitement others my age feel about events such as parties and other social gatherings, or even just talking to another person. My most common emotions seem to be depression, anxiety and loneliness and it's like that in itself also excludes me further from the people around me.
I can't imagine why anyone would want to have a relationship with me but I also can't imagine what life would be like without any meaningful relationships.

Interesting... I feel like a robot for different reasons.

I feel like a chat bot, part of the internet that can be turned on and off at whim. When the computer is off I don't exist. I long to be treated like I'm human and for him to remember that I have feelings. I long to do things in person and hang out and be real. But every day I sit in my chat window and wait for him to sign on and then I talk and play games because I'm nothing more than entertainment for my Aspie friend.