MJackson wrote:
There are girls in my class who are underage as in 17 and 18 and they always talk about drinking and partying. I don't care what they do, but it's really annoying how they make a big deal out of it. I've never been into drugs and alcohol, even when I did party a lot back in 8th grade and freshman year. I've never done that stuff. Idk why, i just don't like it. But I used to go to teen clubs and house parties all the time, and I would dress up a certain way that wasn't me.
I could never relax at those things all I did was worry about what girl to dance with or how I look. I did get a lot of numbers and dances, and I also got turned down a lot..no big deal. sometimes girls would even ask me to dance.
The big deal is that I wasn't being myself. I was being someone that I wasn't. I was dressing thuggish and trying to be cool. There's nothing wrong with being cool, but I talked in ways that weren't just me.
There were too many lights, dancing and people putting on a front (a false personality)...kinda like I was. There's too much tension and competition so I finally stopped going.
Now there are all these goody good girls who's parents have them on lockdown all day and now they are getting ready to go off to college. One girl's parents let her drink so she threw a party and invited her friends and some other people. Basically everyone was invited. But they make a big deal outta drinking and stuff, and even my friend said so as well. I don't like all of that.
So yesterday my brothers go out to clubs (such as Stoudemires) to bring in the new years and my moms bf acts like I'm kinda weird cuz I don't like going.
I dont like going because they are much for me. Too much action, noise, drunk people, and I don't have any money anyways. and the girls always get in like 10-15 dollars less which is bullcrap.
It's like men go to clubs to get laid, and girls go there to get attention and have fun. Men don't even like doing it, besides getting drunk.
Idk...Im afraid of going to college which is right by all that stuff. I just wanna be me, and not go to clubs, but still have sum good friends to just hang out with.
I think i'm one of the few people on the spectrum that I've observed to like these things. Really though, it depends. I would LOVE to go to a rave someday, or even go to a club sometime, but most of my friends are not into any of that stuff, and I wouldn't like to go alone. I guess it might be different because I'm a girl but I definitely see no shame in partying up in the company of good friends! It can be awkward at times, but I always seem to have a good enough time where after a little bit, I stop thinking about how awkward I might be acting. It really depends on who you're going with too though. I have to feel comfortable around the people I am out with, and in general with the environment. Otherwise I won't really socialize past the people I came with. I wouldn't worry about these things though. I despised all of these things until I was 21, ironically. I guess maybe it can get a little easier with age/experiences?
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(Diagnosed PDD-NOS as a baby. Not sure where I fall on the spectrum these days...)