SkipNip wrote:
I am. I love it. I've been like this ever since I was a kid. I make friends but I only like to hang around with them for very short periods of time, I prefer to be alone. I came across this article:
http://aspergermindspeaks.blogspot.com/ ... s-mri.htmland read the My Comments part and thought that was the biggest load of BS concerning autism I've read my whole life. Whoever wrote that does NOT have autism. Hes saying the autistic person is an extremely social individual. Just saying the word social makes me feel sick. Literally, I feel nauseous now after thinking about it. I have little or no desire to connect with others. I like exchanging information with other people and I respect others and like the way we can work together as a team on things but I don't socialize, I don't even understand what socializing is. I find sawing my own leg off with a rusty hacksaw more enjoyable than sitting around talking about meaningless, pointless BS. Only joking I've never sawed my own leg off with a rusty hacksaw so I don't know what it feels like and I'd say it'd be far worse than sitting around socializing but there are many so called painful and negative things that I find more enjoyable than socializing. One night I forced myself to endure a couple of hours of sitting around with my mother and her boyfriend talking absolute BS while they drank wine and smoked cigarettes, the experience left me feeling sick for another hour or so afterwards and if that wasn't f**** up enough, my ma now uses that as an argument against me when I say I don't like socializing. She'll be like "but you've spent hours talking before", my god this BS instills homicidal rage in me sometimes. After that day I decided I will never again participate in that mindless BS and if anyone is offended by me ignoring their attempts to get to join a conversation, thats their problem. I seriously doubt I'm the only one here with these sentiments. What do all of you think? Are these people who claim to be autistic yet also claim that they are social people, just posing as someone with autism for some reason? I was diagnosed with high functioning autism, I dunno if thats different to aspergers or not but most of the time when I read someone diagnosed with aspergers describe themselves, I can relate 100, its just the odd time I come across a so called person with aspergers claim that they like socializing and it leaves me wondering if they actually have autism or not.
same here... I've been asked by relatives why I never show up so just told them that I might someday, just to get them to stop talking about it. Some people absolutely infuriate me, some frighten me, and many just don't seem real.
the same thing happens to me at social events as happens on the #@$%^& phone; which is I start shaking and trembling, can't think straight, I lose my appetite, lose my sense of who I am - that is hard to describe but I feel like I'm being erased or something.
Being alone eventually calms me, but it can take a day or two or more before I feel myself again.