So today I did it again! (Friendship+awkward love interest?)

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I've had 2 or 3 very close male friends (I am female) for most of my adolescent and early adulthood...
I tend to not make friends with other 'girls' - well, I tend to just not make friends in general, but I digress.

One of these close friends (male) in question managed to somehow be so awkwardly charming and great that I professed a bit of a crush on him earlier this year... Nothing came of it, it was a little touchy for awhile and I was worried our friendship was over...

- but through it all, especially recently, we've been talking and hanging out just the same. Phew.

I should say right here that I explained the asperger's within the past 3 months, despite having been diagnosed long before that - and that he is the son of a childhood psychiatric nurse, and is familiar with the autism spectrum. In fact, he's been much more understanding about, well, everything since I told him.

I should also say that my intense crush/love interest has never exactly gone away, I've just ignored it.

Well, last night I give him a call and started discussing our mutual obsession with foxes - he asks what I am doing tomorrow, I say "not sure. no real plans." and we agree that we should meet up.
He says "call me around 12 noon."
I say "no lets make it earlier...like, 10 am!"

-and he complied.

But I had a sinking feeling all night that he really would rather sleep until noon? Or something.

I also had the dawning realization that my good pal was hoping to get me to go to Six Flags amusement park with him... on 'labor day' weekend in a very tourist-laden town?

I was in full-on withdraw/shutdown mode by morning - and followed my stupid aspie "instincts" and didn't even attempt a call until it was after 12 noon.

As it turns out, he had set his alarm for 9:30 in order to take my call. He had been waiting all morning for me to call, and by the time I did, he had given up on me and was upset with me! He referred to it as me "standing him up".
He was so sad/angry (I could not tell over the phone) and even hung up on me.

After thinking it over logically, for a few hours - I decided to own up to my mistake and apologize for leaving him waiting like that.
I even drove over to his dorm (not close! while it was raining!) and sorta sang him a little rhyme from one of our favorite comics when he opened the door.

I also brought him his favorite soda, and a little flower I picked on the way there.
He seemed to like it quite a bit.

After that everything seemed fine, we went together to eat and to a game store and then I went home.


Do you all have any suggestions for a socially clueless aspie female should do now?
Is everything good? Did I do the right thing? Do you think I might still have a chance romantically?

I just don't know...

Try discussing things with him regarding this topic.

How so? Such as, how do I bring it up? What do I ask?

I am a tad nervous.

Just discuss it when you feel comfortable. Ask him if he thinks that things could go further than a friendship. Just tell him your feelings about this. I know that the guy usually makes the first move, but you have nothing to lose. If it doesn't work out romantically, you've still got a good friend.

I think you did a good job.

I think you will be fine too. No relationship is conflict free and it's good you went over there.

EmmiSpeaks, I think what you did was cute and sweet. Boy or girl, the image of anyone (you) standing there with a favorite soda, a flower and singing a rhyme would touch anyone.

Since he is aware of your AS, I would explain to him your incorrect instinct/feeling and your other friend's invitation to Six Flags that led to your shutdown mode that in turn led to following your initial instinct which turned out to be a mistake. I'm sure he will understand, but do not bend over backwards explaining more than is necessary. Who knows? Maybe your initial apology by showing up was enough and he has already forgotten about it.

Maybe he was also trying to play it cool by suggesting that you call him at 12 to give you time for a lie-in that morning. His agreeing easily and actually setting his alarm for 9:30 am shows he was looking forward to your call as well.

I think you still have a chance.