A little help please.

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Okay, here's the deal.

I've been pretty okay with my life until around my high school years. That was when I noticed more than ever that the kids around me are so motivated to do sports, activities, and stuff. Not only that, I started to feel like I was unmotivated and laid-back. First off, I don't play sports and I don't do extra-curricular activities. Heck, I don't even don anything outside home and school besides appointments and shopping. And yes, I don't go to friend's houses either because RL (real-life) locals suck, in my opinion. x_x;

Now, it just so happens that my lack of motivation also affects me online, where I get my most inspirations. For example, I would do all kinds of things like play games, look and be amazed at people's artwork, check out forums, etc., but I would almost never contribute myself like draw and post my artwork, post at forums, or make little level thingies for games and post them online. So in reality, I figured out in my mind that 97% of the time, I'm motivating myself and 3%, I'm motivating myself with others. Because of that, I feel so distant, bland, and ignored in everywhere around me.

Do any of you know what this feels like and/or know if this is related to A.S. or Autism by any chance? Also, is there any way that I can overcome this?

I would definately be grateful for a few responses. Thanks! ^_^

I can definitely relate to this as I was like this throughout my school years. However, I was able to figure out why I wasn't really motivated to do team sports or extra curricular activities (although in the end I did force myself to do a couple towards my final years of school, why is anyones guess), and its because, in my opinion, people sucked big time. My feeling was why on earth should I do things when I don't want to be around these people? Hence the lack of motivation. I barely left my house either as I disliked hanging around with people who I thought were a waste of space and felt that people didnt really understand me. I really didn't know how to socialise really and didnt have the confidence to try. I never used to be really motivated online either really as I used to be intimidated by computers.

I really came out of my shell when I went to university. This taught me a lot about socialising that school and college never did for me (as well as getting my degree obviously). I went from having very few friends to having more friends then I knew what to do with. And its only recently that I became confident enough to chat to people online (mainly through WP, I'm also on SMS.ac but found a couple of people on there to be quite intimidating and pushy) and Ive spoken to some really cool people as a result. Im now 23 and feel able to cope a little better with others partly thanks to university, and I still have friends from there who I contact. I am also slowly talking to people on WP and this is making me a bit more confident.

Why don't you look for others here who have the same interests as you/live near you etc on this site that you can talk to? Or, depending on your interests, look for groups that you can participate in? This may help you overcome your lack of motivation, university did this for me as did joining the Sea Cadet Corps for a while before university.

I wish you all the best with this and hope that what Ive said is helpful.

I understand. I don't think I can function or manage in my own life in order to take control.

I always wait for people to tell me things, and I shouldn't do that. I should take the initiative myself.

I could try something like that. Of course, it would be a steady process for that to go well, but I'm sure it would be worth it.

I know one of the things that can be annoying is when I have so much in my mind, but it feels harder to express it than it would with others. It's almost like something is preventing me from what I would want to say, like a forcefield (which I could've sworn I heard in this forum before).

So yeah, other than that suggestion above, I guess I could work on talking to people a little more, but I'm still open to suggestions.

Oh, and I'm 17, if anyone wants to know, and thanks for the suggestions so far.