I need new friends

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My friends suck, for the most part at least. I've made one friend in the four years I've spent in university, last year I befriended a guy on the rowing team with me who happened to live 2mins away from my house. This year he's switched to a university about 2000km away so I don't really keep in touch. I've got a few other friends from high school, one developed a coke addiction, eventually kicked it but he's become more of an a**hole than usual lately and I don't really enjoy his company anymore.

Another of my high school friends has never been a very good friend, he's insulting, arrogant, stupid, etc. but I hung out with him because despite his many flaws he was still fun and we got along. Since the end of high school he hasn't really gone anywhere in life, he took a few courses in university and either failed them or didn't do well. I think that started to get him depressed and he stopped being as social as usual, he always had a lot of friends through high school, so he started losing friends and now I'm his best friend. He's become less and less fun to hang out with, so much so that for a while I started getting high before hanging out with him because that was the only way to make it bearable. I probably would have dropped him as a friend by now but I know that if I did it would hurt him a lot, seeing as I'm one of the few friends he's got left and he's told me I'm his best friend on a few occasions, and because I don't have any backup friends.

My one good friend, again from high school, is the one I see the least. I only see this guy once or twice every month or two but we always have stimulating intellectual conversations. He's graduating this year but he's going to do a master's and is probably going to stay at the same university so at least I'll have 2 years of that.

Despite being very good at appearing normal in most social situations, I find it very hard to make friends, and once I do I don't maintain them very well. I've recently become aware of how poorly I maintain friendships, I'm rarely the one to initiate contact and can go a month or more without seeing someone and think nothing of it. I haven't had the chance to work on those skills though because I don't really like most of my friends anymore so I've actually avoided them more times than I've thought of calling them. Most people are very surprised when I mention my AS or tell them about my social difficulties because I've improved a lot but for some reason I've barely made any friends. I'll admit that lately I've been pretty depressed and haven't really done anything social, choosing to spend most of my days cooped up inside doing god knows what, but I was very social for my first two years of university and still made no friends.

I'm switching degrees and going back to school full time next semester, I was only taking 3 courses this semester on the advice of a psychologist, probably the worst thing for me. Anyways, I'm hoping I'll be able to meet new people, I'm getting pretty lonely and frustrated.

I know what you mean. Sometimes you really want friends and enjoy having them, but then sometimes you behave as if you don't need them. And it doesn't mean you don't need them, maybe sometimes people who have AS have to be alone for a while and few ''normal'' people understand that. They usually say that: oh you are so unfriendly, big headed and so on. This all happened to me and is sometimes happening now as well.
I think aspies are people who don't say or express their thoughts but are feeling it all inside very much