I am alone almost all the time. About the only person who comes to spend time with me on a weekly basis is my mother. But during the day I don't usually feel lonely since there are more things to do to pass the time, and I have a lot of spare time on my hands. It's these long, dark winter nights that can be a bit hard. That's usually when I need someone to talk to the most, but there's no one I really CAN talk to. I seldom go out at night because I'm afraid for my safety and I have no one to go out with. I have hardly any real friends and almost all the kids I grew up with have moved away it's like they disappeared. The "city" I live in, there's hardly anything to do at night. Indoors I have my hobbies and my two cats and stuff to keep myself entertained but by evening it all gets pretty dull. I hate to say the word lonely, I've always been kind of a loner and usually have my own way of doing stuff, but I don't want to be alone all the time. Anyway it's getting late, I should be going to bed soon. To sleep...
09 Jan 2010, 10:15 pm
