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Princess87
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07 Jul 2011, 6:34 am

Hi, i am having issues with full time work and coping with it. In January i got a job in the prison service and all was ok for 2 weeks then i started to get really bad thoughts and my mind felt like it started to control me in a very negative way, i was crying all the time and became so scared of going to work i couldn't leave my flat, after endless effort to overcome this i failed and had to quit the job as i thought that was the problem. I then spent two months getting myself back to what i thought was me and finding a job. I got an admin job and was very positive the first week then doubts set in again and the second week i was a mess again, constantly crying at work feeling low and like i couldn't do the job the phone would ring and i wouldn't answer it i was too scared. After much debate, i quit that one too thinking it was because i was out of my comfort zone, as I hadn't done admin work before. I then went to the doctor who suggested council ling at this point i was very depressed thoughts of suicide were a daily occurrence and i was crying all the time full of bad thoughts. I now live at my mum n dads with my boyfriend as we couldn't afford the flat we were living in and that relieved a lot of bad thoughts maybe coz im back home in a familiar surroundings i don’t no. Since getting myself better I’ve begun looking for work once again thinking retail as i have done this for over 6 years and i know it so there shouldn't be issues i managed to get a full time job offered to me i went in Monday for a group induction then the next day i couldn’t go in, my boyfriend took me to work but i sat in the car crying for 40 mins too scared to get out and face people. i felt like such a letdown to everyone that had supported me especially my boyfriend and stared to believe i wasn’t go to be able to do this and just wished it would all end. I tried the next day and still the same. i think its the interaction i will have with new people and customers that scares me plus its a new environment and that makes me uncomfortable anyway. I have managed to get the rest of the week off as I’m seeing a hypnotherapist Saturday morning but i would really appreciate it if you could reply with ways that might help or just share your own experience if you have them. Sorry its so long.
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kahlua
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07 Jul 2011, 6:39 am

The first few weeks of a new job are daunting for anyone, even NTs. What type of jobs are they? Are you able to do something away from other people, or not involving using the phone?

I understand how you feel, and the worst part about my job is dealing with people. Its a great day for me when the phone doesn't ring and nobody comes into my office.



Princess87
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07 Jul 2011, 6:51 am

i think it is dealing with people as the office work i couldn't answer the phone and now im scared of dealing with customers however ......my past jobs have been a shop assistant, a cashier and an air hostess all of which i did well in and had no issues with, i then got a job in a cash office were i worked mostly on my own and was ok answering the phone as it was usually staff on the other end. yet since january and after joining the prison service and quitting that things havent been the same. i dont like social situations and that scares me yet i have done it before just no within the last 2 years as my longest and most recent job was in the cash office which i loved coz i was in there on my own doing the work. since that any job ive tried i had difficulty with.