i hate fighting and so does my body.

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so i have this best friend. 98% we are hilarious weirdos together and all is well. but then 2% of the time he brings up a mistake i made a few months ago. it did involve him, and i understand his anger..but i just wish he wouldn't bring it up so...aggressively. he tells me that i'm sickening, worthless, he hates me, etc. as i said, it's kind of well deserved. but i still don't like it. and these usually happen at night, so i have to go to bed feeling anxious and sick. and then i have to get up and feel anxious and sick. and usually we're back to normal after a day or so, but i always always always worry that this will be it. in fact, yesterday he told me that he's found a new best friend. wow, ouch. seriously. ow.
today i start an internship and it'll be the first time i'm away from home for more than a week, so i really need him by my side and stuff. (change and all that.)
just.
what do i do.

sounds like he still wants the intimacy of your friendship but hasn't really forgiven you. if you apologized for unsaid transgression, meant it, and had one or more open discussions that included your thoughts and perspectives -- i'm not sure what more you can do but give it time (if you value the friendship enough to put up with what it's looking like two percent of time time these days).