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Does anyone else have trouble making friends simply because they dislike people so much?

I have the opposite problem, people dislike me so much.

Working with the public as much as I do, I find myself going through long periods feeling like I hate people, and humanity as a whole. Eventually I do cool down though. It's possible I don't have as many friends as I could, due to this, but I do have a core set of 10 friends, all of whom I've known since elementary school. By friends of course, I mean people who will drop what they are doing to help me in a time of need. Even though we don't maintain constant contact, I don't feel like we've drifted, or that I need any more. Strangely, apart from dealing with the public at work, I only have one-on-one contact with another human being for about 6 hours a month. I prefer to be solitary most of the time.

No, it's not that I actively dislike everyone, it's that I simply don't take a liking to them. I remain indifferent and take no interest in them at all, to say nothing of befriending them.
People are just a grey mass to me with very few I take notice of (and if I do it's usually negative, like finding them annoying, clingy or pushy).

Idk people never approach me, maybe its something I do but its nothing to do really with common intrests sometimes a person may see what im doing and ask but for the most part I feel almost invisible.

I used to, but I'm finding it hard to stick to.

When I first started trying to adjust to my actual gender identity (fluid) instead of my birth sex, I turned to the GLBT community for support because I was afraid and confused. Everyone GLB ignored me except to toss some sex toy suggestions my way to help with my body feeling "wrong" in the bedroom, while several trans people reached out to me.

People care for "their own", and "their own" isn't always obvious. You'd think in GLBT it would be everyone whose gender identity or sexual orientation lies outside of the norm and in prejudice's line of fire, but it's not so. Simply being gives us access to group memberships where people care for "their own", even if it's for loners or those with Autism. We drink our poison one way or another, and if we refuse it's still forced down our throat by the access we are refused and the treatment that's doled out to us based on which groups we (appear to) belong to.

Everyone is a**holes when you come down to it, but at least one group of a**holes sees me as "one of them" and shows me kindness. I can't honestly say I see them as more kind than others, just kind to me because I'm enough like them to empathize with, but what should I feel? Should I hate people who've helped me when I was lost because I may have not received it if I wasn't recognized as one of the pack?

hate takes too much energy to bother with.

I have ten friends. Six of my friends are my close friends and the rest five of my friends are just ordinary friends. But I stopped making friends at age fourteen. I made like seven friends in all of my life at secondary school, but I lose three of my friends because I lost interest in them. Also in all my life primary school, I've made six friends, but I lose three of my friends till secondary school because I lost interest in them

Now when I entered college in September 2013, I made zero friends up till now May 21 2014, I still can't make friends because maybe I don't feel connection with them. I don't feel like I fit in with them. This is how I grew hatred for myself. They were all nice to me, some did approached to me, but I just couldn't do it, is it because I'm nervous? But I've been around with these students for 8 months now.

I'm also hard of hearing and I did go to deaf primary school and secondary school, most of my friends are deaf, and one of my friend is hearing. Is this because I'm not adapted in hearing environment? But I went to mainstream in some lesson, which means I did have experience with hearing people.

If you met me, you will most likely not know that I'm deaf or hard of hearing because my speech is fine and my hearing is fine, the only disadvantage of my hearing is I have difficulty hearing a person while there's loud background noise.

So how come I can't make friends? How come I made some friends in primary school and secondary school? and I think the reason is because my friends interest and my interest relates it. But none of the student in college I see relates to my interest, I don't really fit in with them.

Most "friends" I used to make probably just wanted to be around me so they didn't look like a loner.
Most "friends" I used to make never invited me to their house or any event (birthdays, etc )

I do like people and wish to be around them and I am Neurotypical.

I experienced this a few times, too. Good enough to pass time with, not good enough to show to others as a friend.

I used to worry what they might say behind my back, but it took me awhile to realize it wasn't any of my business of what people think of me. Some people judge you within a minute or less. I just want to find people who are nice and share similar interests.

^^^
have you tried meetup.com?

No I have not used that site.

I just mentioned it because it is worth a try, it is how I found my aspie meetup group.