Hi, I'm curious if anyone has noticed how fabricated social standards seem to be. Almost like everyone is an actor in a movie and you're the only one who's never given a script. Everyone seems to know where they're going and they have extremely distinct personalities that I guess they had to practice. And if you don't have a script you don't really participate in the movie, you just become a background unnamed pedestrian. I've been working retail for 6 years and seen all kinds of people who get away with so much, like their parents raised them to be bad. Because normally as parents raise their kids, adults are your god and you must obey their every command, and oh, by the way, they're never going to teach you that once you grow up you can do whatever you want. Instead you should learn that on your own, when it's too late and your emotional responses are set. Why do parents teach there kids things they cannot do,but break every rule they set, and then never tell you it's suddenly okay to break all their rules too. My parents always used to get angry at me because the way I walked was not a perfectly repeated walk cycle, that I couldn't talk until four and pointed at stuff I wanted instead and made a noise, which means you're an "idiot child", that I don't like standing in one place for long periods of time and pace in circles while they spend 10 minutes meandering through an aisle. They also get angry about bad table manners, swearing, playing video games too much, not doing homework, etc and use spankings and smacks to correct, even though they do many of those things with slight variations. They can swear all they want, even at you. They can watch tv for 6 hours, since its better for you than playing video games. They can sit at the dinner table and chew with their mouth open, and the moment you do they reach over the table and smack you. They never did well in school themselves, and expect you to do very well in school with none of their support. What they consider 'helping' with homework means standing over you staring you down until you freak out from anxiety and listen to them scream at you to do homework. And then they can ignore you all they want. If you need help with something, want to show them something you did, they'll ignore you and you should just walk away. You are NOT allowed to retaliate. Ever. You get beat up if you tell them to "stop swinging your arm so far when you walk" or "don't use the lord's name in vain" or "stop chewing with your mouth open" or "stop watching so much tv" and if you ignore them it's also punishment worthy. As an adult this is still true it seems. People can ignore me all they want, it's okay. If you ignore them you're a psychopath/ass/idiot. I'm not a supersocialsoldier who knows everything about pop culture and all the various models of Ford vehicles, and know all the part numbers of every engine piece by heart after only seeing each of them once. It's common knowledge. Girls want men who will treat them with respect, and beating up your girlfriend, telling her she's getting fat and needs a diet, controlling what she wears is considered respect. It's okay for others to get drunk and be aggressive or insult people, its called being badass. But if you do it, everyone will hate you. You're considered dumb if you can't remember how to do something somebody showed you once, like tying a complex knot. But you can't counter them by asking them to play some Bach on piano after you show them once, they refuse the challenge because if they don't remember (which is likely they won't), they weren't paying attention and therefore must be diagnosed with ADHD/ADD and need ritalin. But to say that is being an ass. I waste my money on buying cheap ICs and components for cents, used $200 oscilloscopes, a solar panel and batteries and arduinos and raspberry pis. But it's not a waste of money to spend $3000 on turbocharging and upgrading a junker car that gets junked in 4 months anyway. In fact, it's experience building and will lead you to a good job. Working with electronics can only get you a job if you get a degree. And college is designed to filter out idiots like me. Nobody likes me nobody wants a conversation with me, nobody texts or calls or emails me. The moment they detect you aren't socially experienced you're not worth speaking to except for commanding you to do tasks. You don't have authority to command them, you do not have authority to retaliate or point out their flaws like they do to you. Essentially, you can't copy anyone else's script. The golden rule inverse does not apply. You can't do to others what they did to you.
11 May 2015, 6:21 pm
