so called neurotypicals are perfectly crackable. on a recent trip overseas, my small talk repulsion became so strong that, by refusing to take part, i accidentally found a direct way into their psyche. it’s all about eye contact and intention, it seems that severe social panic can be converted into a “trust black hole” that triggers a mutual desire to connect of almost mythic proportions. every time it happened, social conventions were instantly dropped, as if we were surrounded by a bubble of intimacy, with no need for verbal communication. i believe the difference in cultural backgrounds helped, as people had no preconceived ideas on how to process my behavior. has anyone had similar experiences?