The inescapable monster

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Its been a long term problem and im not even sure where to put this so im putting it with my more direct symptom.
I have consistently felt and seen reasons that keep drawing in the idea that im, really quite a horrible person. To talk to, friends to, work with, live with, exist around. Recently i've had my friends all independently show their opinions of me as a person. A whining, baby who is always wanting someone to talk to at all time. To try to cure this, i have taken days off for myself and just to myself litterally and it has been wonderful. Although it really does seem like everyone is enjoying me not talking and being away from them, i just dont think i should talk to them or have any freinds atall just for the benifit of others.
I dont know what to do from here, i could easily just leave or stay and they both seem to be a detriment overall to everyone and me....

You probably have at least some redeeming qualities.

One of my nicknames is "wolfman."

Have you anything that really interests you?

The "cure" for your situation is to talk to people, hang out with them, but don't rely too much on them.

Oh im not irredeemable but i really cant believe that my good points go anywhere near equal to my bad points in a bad way. I have tried that cure before but it tends to basically just never go positive or well, even just talking purely in jokes or for fun i always feel terrible during and after and they never seem to of enjoyed the time.
Most of my interests tend to be very isolated, reading manga/Anime and playing various video games. Dont really have much past that.

You're still young. Things just might turn around.

I've felt similar to you. I've felt hopeless. All you can do is persist---especially if your heart is in the right place,

I wonder if going to an anime convention might change your luck.

I have... Its possibly one of the most fightening and lonely places that ever existed for me. i've tried a few times but its not really progressed past... well no real progress. I can keep going but the only people who seem to have a good social life are just bad people. Right now any friends i talk to right now are just adding everything bad and horrible i am generally. Guess its very intervention-style but i dont really know how to react or anything. I know im young but my age has been used as a crutch to any issues so i cant reallly keep saying youth to everything, kind of like how you cant say autism is answer to everything.
Persisting might just lead to me sitting at home all day alone so thats the main worry. Keep on normal and i might just be stuck with myself and me and never talk outside talking to myself. It sounds brilliant to be alone forever but not sure its good or healthy.

I wish I had a solution to this.

what do your friends do or say that "makes it worse" for you?

Do you have good days as well?

For the most part its really just everything leading to bad talking like their money or such...
Been really not good days for a while now past week or so. Good days tend to be me alone right now.

Maybe this might be just the cue to bring up something else other than their money.

Muhammad Ali just passed away. He's a good topic of discussion. He was a complicated man.

Its mostly been around them bringing up that topic and expecting me to be the support for them while i cant the other way. Bit confusing but there.