You are not part of the herd, and the herd tries to force conformism on outsiders. If they can't make you like them, then they drive you away, because you are perceived as a possible threat or enemy. I don't fit their model, so I can never conform. By the time I was twelve I realized I would never fit in, and always be a loner. I did have a very few casual friends even after that, but as life took us apart, these relationships ended. I have spent my life as a hermit, even when living with relatives, but I find I prefer that, as I detest being attacked for not conforming. Why would I want to hang out with people who attack me for being different than them? Fortunately, I now live alone, and don't have to be with people much any more. I do enjoy hanging out here at WP, with my own kind, but people here don't attack me for being different. I also enjoy reading and responding to letters at Dear Abby, and sometimes post at other sites, too. This, along with occasional family contact, and occasional contact with others during errand runs, is enough social contact for me. I find more intensive social contact to be much too stressful. I prefer being alone, which is hard for my sociable, extroverted father to understand. He absolutely can't believe that anyone could like being a loner, in spite of my telling him for more than 5 and a half decades! I don't mind his being sociable. I wish he could accept my being a loner. 
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If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer.
Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured, or far away.--Henry David Thoreau