having a really hard time being nice

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I have been really cold and snappy with two of my former room/bandmates.
Today they came to get some mail and I coud scarcely talk to them.
I am sort of resentful of them actually.
One was responsable for our venue getting robbed because he had a drunken party after hours with some shady characters and didn't lock the door. So he is pretty much on the list of people I do not like...no apology..he simply responded by staying away....even though i have known him for years he is like a stranger to me

The other who is my ex-roommate who also has neuro-issues...the last time he was hanging around he kept going on screaming and yelling rampages and then moved out without saying goodbye....And I have not felt like being friendly with him....he can be such an unpleasant person if anyone gets him started...

Then there is the automatic contepmpt I feel for any female who calls and asks for the first guy I mentioned because I hate being his answering service and when he live here he had several different girls calling at all hours...now that he is back for just a little while....the phone calls for him have started again.....I was unneccesarily rude to whatever girlfriend of his who just called for him...

I have also not been very nice to other people who have been calling for various reasons....

gee maybe i am in a bad mood....

This weekend we are participating in the Houston Art Car parede...ok..it is tomorrow...and i have been working my ass off and am kinda stressed.....
I am really nervous that I am gonna end up being a total b***h to every person I come into contact with.....

I know i should probably pause before I react...but easier said than done....

Those sound like perfectly reasonable reasons to be impatient with those people.You can't be expected to accomodate every difficult person.It sounds like you are doing your best in that environment.

it just seems so much easier for everyone else around me.