Acquaintances Rather than Friends?

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Now that I've started college, I realize that I am horrible at maintaining deep friendships. I get along with everyone, always have someone to talk to in class or eat lunch with, but I have no desire to do anything else with them. No socializing or anything. I do have a small group of friends on my floor, but lately I've gone home every weekend because I just don't care enough to hang out with them. I mean, they can get annoying, but they're nice and fun.....I'm just apathetic to the whole thing. I had friends in high school, but it was because through years and years of being in the same class, I was forced to keep the relationship going, until it became more, and then we'd been friends so long that no effort was involved. Now that they live away and effort is involved, I almost never contact them. But when they come back, we hang out just like old times. It's like I just can't invest effort in making new friends or maintaining new ones. It's nice to have someone to chat with, but I don't want to counsel my friends through all their problems, and don't expect them to help me through all mine. I've never had a closeknit group of friends - I had individual close friends during high school, but we didn't hang out every day like it seems as though other people did. Everyone else had these great groups of friends who hung out all the time - they have bulletin boards full of pictures and friends coming up to visit all the time. I had 2 close friends who weren't friends with each other and had their own groups I wasn't part of, we never took pictures, they live too far away to come up. It's like I just missed the high school experience...but I'm ok with that. Hanging out a few times a week in a structured environment is what I want - I don't want to do the everyday nothing's ever planned till the last minute socializing that college is about. I feel like I'm just unbelievably lazy about it - I just don't care enough to actively seek out friends - if friendships happen, they happen , and I dont need a ton of them. I just worry once my old friends have jobs in a few years they will make new ones and I just will never get around to it and I'll have a bunch of colleagues I get along with and have lunch with, but no actual friends to do stuff with. Does anyone else feel like this?

That tends to happen. I'm just like that, I have what I call "friends" in college, but I know they really aren't my friends, I get along with them, I spend the whole time with them at college, but I get home and I don't talk to them or msn them, I don't go out with them, etc... and yes, I don't mantain my friendships either, it's tough.

In my case it's also different, because here you don't live in college, I live in my house, like everybody else, and if somebody's from another place, they rent a bedroom in some house for college students.