Looking for Aspies to talk to

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Hi. I just joined.

I am not diagnosed with AS but I highly suspect that I am. I first started to suspect during my freshman year at college 5 years ago when I first learned of AS. I related so well to the descriptions, but I told myself I was just looking for verification of being "special."

Since my freshman year, I've been diagnosed with depression, social anxiety, and possibly ADD, but I have never felt any of the treatments helped. I felt no one was really addressing my problem.

By chance I watched a video on youtube about AS and it got me thinking again. I did some reading and for the first time felt someone was describing my "problem." Just now I took an online AS test at http://www.rdos.net which was recommended by someone at this site. Some of the questions felt so personal and addressed things no one else has ever addressed that I cried.

I really want to talk to diagnosed Aspies. Especially, high functioning ones. I think people have always assumed I was eccentric because I was "gifted". Looking at my past, my childhood is filled with obvious signs of AS, but I still have doubts. I think talking with someone without doubts would really help. I don't trust doctors much.

If you are a high functioning Aspie and would be willing to be a pen-pal with me while I figure out all this, please respond or send me a message. A college grad would be really nice, so that I can understand how i could have gone through so much schooling without diagnosis. (Not to say school was easy or enjoyable to me, heh)

Thanks for reading this!!

Welcome to WP! I'm not a college grad (although I will be starting college next fall), but I am very high-functioning and more mature than most other students my age. BTW, I'm in central Indiana!

Welcome to WP.

I had a peek at your website. You look a lot younger than I imagined. Cute hat

Heh heh. Why? How young do I look?

I'll be 24 in a matter of days, by the way.

lol - so your not the one on your back in the jump suit?

You must be "Auntie Rae". The hot chick with the longer hair ? (not that the one with short hair is not hot)

Don't worry about me. I'm just a middle aged, uncouth Aussie. There a pic of me somewhere.

Use the search function. search for the text "pic*" and usename bazza*

hehe, he was talking about the baby

AS is "new", so many doctors will look at you and say that it's depression, social anxiety and all that, because they see the effects, not the cause.

What are some of the doubts you have about your chidhood related to AS?


BTW, you look younger, are you kidding? are you really 24?
nice site

Well, i don't have long hair anymore. I recently just got it cut and dyed red.

I'll refrain from going into a tirade about the adjective "hot", but i will say that I think despite my apparent "hotness" (you aren't the first to say so), I'm always the "wall flower at the party". More evidence of Asperger's, I guess.

The next is copied from my introduction thread:

Ok, I'm going to attempt to tell my AS story or why I think I'm an Aspie. It's going to be a work in progress. I'll add as I feel like it.

Let's just start with childhood, right?

First off, I didn't start speaking till I was 3. There was suspicion at the time about autism, but Asperger's was almost completely unknown in the states. So, I wasn't diagnosed with being on the spectrum. I had troubles with speech and had to take speech lessons longer than anyone else in my school, till I was 9. I was also horrible at reading phonetically. I learned to read young, but not by phonetically forming the words. I memorized whole words and their meanings. To this day, I cannot pronounce any word I have never seen before without alot of luck. Despite all this, I was still labeled as "gifted" when I was 5 and was in gifted programs during all of my schooling.

I don't think i need to say anything about my social difficulties. Pretty much everything I have read on the subject at this site and others apply to me. I learned to compensate some for my total lack of social intuition, but like the rest of you, all social interaction is forced. Since a very young age, I have thought of myself as an actor playing the character of "Me" around others. I talked for my own entertainment. Other people's conversations held little of my attention. My side of conversations are always full of personal jokes with myself and obscure quotes.

The question: "Do you use stock phrases or phrases borrowed from other situations or people?" from the Aspie quiz really struck a cord and surprised me. I was also surprised by the question: "Before doing something or going somewhere, do you need to visualize the place you're going to or rehearse possible scenarios in your mind so as to prepare yourself?" I do this ALL the time for everything from interviews to greeting someone at the door, phone calls to anticipated social events. I thought everyone did it, but when i looked at the evaluation of the quiz, it was quite apparrent that only Aspies did this routinely.

Ok, from that divergence, back to childhood before quiting for the day. Since forever, I have been very easy to cry. It's surprising that I was not diagnosed with an emotional problem at a young age. I was diagnosed with depression during college and thought maybe that was an explaination for the crying, but the asperger description of emotional outburst better matched what was going on inside me when I cried. It wasn't saddenness, but usually frustration and anger that would and still can cause me to cry.

This last subject brings me to why I want to be diagnosed. I have been through psycho-theoropy, drugs, and cognative behavior theoropy for my depression and anxiety. I always felt that these treatments weren't addressing the real issue, whatever it was. I'm hoping that Asperger's is the proper diagnosis and will lead to proper treatment for myself. I want to stop the feeling of beating my head against a brick wall, which is what these other treatments feel like.

Thanks for reading. This is longer than expected, but there may be more to come. There is ALWAYS more to add. heh

-Rae

Hey there HurricaneRae. I'm 24 and I suppose I meet your criteria. I suspect myself of being an Aspie, have competed university and trying my best to socialise at work. I Live in the UK, and would very much like a pen / email friend. PM me sometime.

If it hasn't been mentioned already, why not just go and pay for a diagnosis?

I'm in the process of getting diagnosed, but it takes awhile to get in to see specialist wher I live. It will probably be another couple months.

I don't know if I qualify here or not. I have been diagnosed with AS but I don't think I have it. I'm not into math or science or into computers in an aspie way. I like using them and being on one but I don't know how to fix them or make them. I also read late, read about my obsessions late (starting at age ten) I was not a little professor and I was not a walking encyclopedia on facts till I reached adolescence. I was not into anything non-fiction when I was little till I was in 4th grade.
But none of that is in the criteria but I still think I am more PDD-NOS.

well i don't think I have a high degree of AS, I have it-but I can force myself to socialise you know when i really have to

I am borderline AS/NT, and halfway through college.

Tim

I'm an Australian. what do you expect?

im here

That's what this forum is for, is it not? For us who all have a common disorder to talk to eachother without having to worry about people not understanding you.