LostInEmulation wrote:
I just came back from a 'party' and I feel really sh***y.
I hate family celebrations with a passion. While I always get emotionally blackmailed to attend, I never have fun, have MDs (and lock myself in the toilet for those) and never talk to people more than absolutely necessary. Did I mention that some people, I despise are constantly around me? :puke:
I started thinking, my family has such a desire to have me around, but since they don't realize how it is for me, they are just plainly cruel to me. Why is their desire for my presence more important than my psychological wellbeing anyways? I want somehow to get the point across that I never want to be at a family celebration again, preferably without insulting them. Any advise?
I was just thinking how many other people really don't want to be there, either. I will bet if you waved some immunity wand over them so many of them would wish it were as easy as hiding in the bathroom or stepping out side to puke.
But you are not going to get much sympathy from the other ones that want to cut out early or come real late simply because SHOWING UP IS EASIER THAN NOT SHOWING UP.
now lets think about that for a minute. What would it be like if you didn't show up? Not for YOU, we already know you wouldn't miss it at all. I mean the family would encroach even MORE upon you, seeking you out, wondering what was wrong, could they do something, would you like more of this, less of that. . . until you just cloud up and THUNDERSTORM all over them.
so. . see it like a tithe. . a little time where you pay your dues and then escape, like a lot of the rest of the people there, doing the same thing.
some things we just don't get out of.
Merle