i have few friends i have in high school but their really cool exapt my stupid idiot friend name shandy she is a complete b***h since forever. I have a problem with them it's like a man's world my life is sucks because they treated me nothing i feel like a victomized girl child that have deep feeling of emptiness because nobody wants to hang out with me. I am a lonely person since forever my feelings are emptiness last year in grade eight i been bullied hundred friggin times no one help me make it stop but nobody won't help me. I'm gay i been gay since forever because guys don't liked me or ask me out so since i was born i disided to be gay forever. i try to discover a little somethin' to make me sweeter like make my friends understands my friends are gang members the group called the bastard club my friend Anthany make this group up they smoke i don't and they just being idiots sometimes we never hang for weeks because it never happend to me but, i think being a bastard doesn't feel good anymore i'm still gay but they don't know i'm gay but i'm welling to give up all this life of bad bastard all nine yards whatever it takes i give all of this because i want to start a new life like join a new group or something i should do what i good at and do it what i love because i'm not some badass ex bastard gang that dosen't mean what i do it's not important i still like my friends but i don't want them to keep on judging me. i never been perfect to anything, ever... look i never wanna be a tim horton staff i wanna become a pirate and wanted to go to law school in barcelona. I want to get out of this place because nobody loves me and hang out with me anymore. No ones ever spokin' to me for hole week i really really need a friend is to take care of me, loved me helped me, sing with me, be there for me, stand up for me, hang out with me, stick together and work with me but i don't have that friend and i want really really is a girlfriend to love forever, stand beside me, be there for me, helping me, sing with me, work with me, go on a date with me, see a movie with me, have sex with me, calling me on the phone, be together forever and get married that's all i wanted in my entire life and my future i will always love a girl when isee her forever no matter what people react or freaked they'll never understands but they'll be wants they get used to it. my deeper feeling still emptiness please bring me a friend can help me thanks!
03 Apr 2008, 7:05 pm
