rushfanatic wrote:
Hello to all.... I just wonder if anyone has felt as I do about being so different from everyone else,yet trying to fit in as much as possible with my environment.
Yes, that pretty much says it in a sentence for the majority of us Aspies on this site, I think.
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I feel like it is the game, Red Rover, Red Rover, let someone come over. I want to break through so much to be with the others, but it is like I am a statue, and I cannot break through, much less move .I can't.I just can't, and it looks so easy for others to do so...
Yes that's a good analogy for how it feels. And now that you mention it, what a horrible game that was for me as a kid. I remember the fear and exclusion well.
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Also, I think of the movie, Back to the Future, where the polaroid pic of the family is slowly fading the one character away. That person is like me, I do not feel like a true part of the whole picture. I also print-cursive, always have, never needed lined paper either. I cannot hear 2 people talk at once, they blend into 1 smeared message. My daughter is autistic, and I have started reading the book, Pretending to Be Normal. It says autism may be genetic. My siblings are so quick-witted, mellow, and open, yet I have never, ever allowed myself to completely open up to others..I just don't go there... Any feedback is greatly appreciated.......Peace...
I have an aspie mom and grandma, but other than that we're the only ones in my family. I somehow ended up with two NT kids, which is a challenge in its own way, believe it or not. Welcome, I only found this site a little over a month ago and it's helped me learn more about myself in that month than I had for 42 years.
15 Jan 2006, 2:23 pm
