Depression...It's Back.

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I thought I would feel loads better once my course of ECT was finished....but I don't.
I am thinking that part of it is due to the fact that the psychiatrist I had did not believe that I have ADHD or HFA. He virtually scoffed at me when I told him.
The depression I feel now is worse than when I was first admitted to hospital back in November.
I even went to the local hospital ED (there is no psychiatric ward locally). The doctor there changed my medication back to Lexapro from Effexor. Part of the reason was my blood pressure (147/102).
About the only thing/person keeping me going is GalileoAce. I want to be happier so I can go and see him and his family.
I am feeling scared, though, and I'm not sure why.
There are symptoms I have that I am not sure about. I have lots of twitches that never used to bother me, I am smelling strange smells that I know are not really there (like something burning, mushrooms, etc) and I am having strange dizzy spells that happen along with strange thoughts. My appetite has all but disappeared. My Mum is a bit upset at me over it.
I really couldn't think of anywhere else I could write about stuff like this, but here.
Tomorrow I am doing something about it and going to see another doctor. Mum thinks I will end up in hospital again but I am hoping I won't.
Even though no one may write back, I am so thankful that there is somewhere that I can write my thoughts down. I am thankful for WrongPlanet.

(((Warm soft hugs to renaeden if she wants them)))

Hang in there hon. I'm amazed at how well you are handling this, how perfectly. Hang in there until you get to a doctor that can help.

Is there anything anyone here can do to help?

BeeBee

Aww renaeden. That sucks. Perhaps you should still take that trip to QLD, though. Won't seeing GA make you feel a tad better? Anyway, feel better, Ren.

I'm sorry to hear the ECT hasn't worked.
Have you had good advice on what the residual symptoms of the treatment might be?
I get olfactory illusions, (usually burnt caramel) with my migraines.

Do keep posting here. Getting ignored doesn't seem too likely!

Best wishes.

I'm always here (or there..) for you. Always, thick or thin.

Many, many thanks to Bee Bee, danlo and Emettman.
Reading your comforting words has made me feel better.
I have just read something rather unsettling about ECT and that is that it can induce epilepsy. I used to take Epilim (sodium valproate) as a mood stabiliser. I was taken off it as the psychiatrist treating me thought there was no point to it. He told me that the ECT would not work if I was taking an anti-convulsant. That made sense to me, so I agreed and stopped taking it. During my second ECT I apparently had a grand mal seizure that lasted over 5 minutes. I don't think they needed to tell me this news!
I am meant to be seeing a doctor today so I can explain my unhappiness.
I have spoken to GA on the telephone. His computer has broken down, so he is in a bit of a panic, understandable.
I hope I am feeling well enough to go and see him real soon. I just don't know why I am feeling so confused with weird thoughts in my head.....
Ah, I have just seen GA's post. He must have gotten to his Mum's computer. So resourceful he is!

Maybe the mood stabliser was helping originally? (not counting the depression that led up to the Hospital, extenuating circumstances there).

I don't know... I feel kinda helpless all the way over here, but you know I'm only a phone call away if you want to chat


And yes, my own PC has died... Oh woe! It's at the Computer Store getting assessed, I should hear back in 2 days...