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I used to but now I just can't get into anything as heavily as I used to be able to. I used to be content with my solitary private life, just doing things on my own. Now I feel like I need to share my thoughts with someone else to stay excited.

I've explored the exercise thing in the past. I found that if I went to the gym at 8:00 in the morning I felt good afterwards for up to an hour but then I felt just as tired and unmotivated by early afternoon. It wasn’t worth the loss of an hour of sleep in the morning. I still like to go for strenuous hikes on the weekends but they don't have much of a lasting effect. Sure, I feel happy while hiking but then later on I feel depressed again.

It obviously isn't simple. Physical stimulation isn't enough for me. I need intellectual stimulation to have true happiness. I need to always be thinking in order to be happy. I'm not content just living a simple day to day routine. Maybe I'd be happier if I was a dog where I could simply sleep whenever I got bored.

Going first thing in the morning seems to be the conventional thing to do but to be honest it does nothing for me, I prefer to go at whatever time is most comfortable. The hiking thing sounds great though.

Do you read a lot? Maybe you should start reading some books you've always wanted to read, or some books which you'd never normally look to read. That's a whole new world right there. Or take an open university course (I don't know if you have them where you are) in an intellectually stimulating subject.

marshall, is there something, something at all, that holds your attention longer than other things and gives you a bit of a better mood? If so, why not expand it or make a project around it?

Failing that, your obvious cure is to come to the Middle East. I can assure you that here there's not a minute to sit still - adrenaline doesn't let you. Any flavor you prefer: missiles from the north? from the south? economic crisis? five thousand years of human strife? messiahs of all colors and ages? God on every corner? the belly button of the world, and hot like the witch's kettle.

It's almost like I have to gather energy in order to enjoy something. I don't know where the source is. I can find something exciting one moment then find it tedious the next.


Fun. Is it like an amusement park? Are the missiles free?

Yes, I always say it's like an amusement park, only it's for real. Excitement everywhere, whether you are into World of Warcraft, religion, archeology, history, myth, legend, mysticism, ancient art and architecture, eternal deep blue skies and Mediterrenean beaches, desert mountains, seas of salt and mud baths (Dead Sea), snowy cities of God, scorching sun, beautiful cafes, the freest gay scene, the Kabbalah, a crazy rythm of life in the cities and a sleepy scenery in the farm communities (kibbutz), and right now we also have Hillary Clinton here. Oh and we also have Aspies meetings once a month, though I've never been.

If you are able to find a quiet minute to get bored here, tell me how.

I don't know, I guess I have a special talent. None of those things are really that interesting to me.

History is interesting but ultimately very depressing. I don't like to be reminded of how insane the human race really is. It's frightening. I'm reminded of just how alone I am in this world. I could care less about religion. I'm not one of them.

Some people don't like getting pms without permission in advance.....sorry if it wasn't wanted.. I was trying to help but seems like I made a mistake......

Oh no. I read your pm and liked it. I just didn't think of what to respond right away and then I forgot about it.