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jammie
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20 Jun 2006, 7:25 pm

jamie sits he stare into space. he look at the lampshade, the wall the picture of the cat.

he stare at the screen what to write how to describe?

words escape.

Dear people at my review.

I am not here. If my way has been had i am upstairs. please do not be alramed (well, it would be harder to be stolen if you were alarmed)

sitting staring. hearing no caring
failing flailing. seeing no reason
falling, forming. feeling no rush
burning, brusing. sense no pain

no reason whoing deep in my mind

and cut across the throat.

I am sat her lion across my lap music dropwning out all the sounds of my room, i am sat i here i cannot sleep, i cannot send my head to stop to pause to start from anothe track.

I can feel the world beneath me the sheets benith my legs the sound benieth the beat the world beneight the strets

i lyed there i tried to cry no tear outside no tear inside. the anger

eruption pyroclatic. no meltdown.

I want to scream to shout. tolet it out but all in all i cannot

let them know they have won in my again.

it rises agaist and pain. i look at dum dum, i look at lion i feeel ,my anger pulsate and smash to cut my throat is no release.that pain of those who not knwo me who think they do.

at a funerla ttwo people crying

two peopl dieing

if there is an edge i am in air sace, rader has not picked me,

thouse who see me now, hanging on with rope of light in the twightlight exsistance

2 destryed two destroyed a prime number of destruction.

why should i destroy somthing so aimed at love? why cannot i understand

spin spin in time rotate in my tent of light and sound of speed and from which all life excits absolute zero nothing going on all atoms stopped moving life is stilll.

life if still
still is life


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20 Jun 2006, 8:13 pm

I LOVE LAMP!! !! !!



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21 Jun 2006, 12:41 pm

I'm sorry to hear that Jammie. Don't do it


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21 Jun 2006, 5:15 pm

Jammie,

I know what it feels like. It feels like sh*t. But please don't hurt youreself. You are better than this. Fight them. Fight the pain. You can do this.


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29 Jun 2006, 6:57 pm

That is so weird, I've had intruding thoughts of a knife against my throat, even though life is great now and I'm not depressed. Then, like three days after it started, someone at my school I overheard him shout, "Who the hell cuts their f***ing throat?"

Scary stuff. I know.


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