snake321 wrote:
I dunno if I'm gonna take my life or not at this point.... I'd be lying if I said it hasn't crossed my mind, and it would be very easy for me to buy a gun black market. I haven't really discussed this with anyone off this board because I know that nobody gives a s**t what I feel like.
Heh, ironically, I seen a girl on myspace through the asperger syndrome groups and I decided to write to her and she shot me down, and then I seen her on here. Truth be told I don't think I'll ever beat involuntary celibacy again, I should have never left my ex.
You can sit there and say "self termination is wrong", who sais? I mean, who'se living my life? I am, so it should be my decision to make. I mean, I didn't ask to live a life of oppression and emotional starvation, sometimes death is more humane than life. Honestly, I don't know at this point rather I will kill myself or not, but it is weighing on my mind, and it is within my grasp.
I'm atheist so I'm not making a moral judgement with the word "wrong". I mean
wrong as in: its wrong to put metal in a microwave. Its bad for a microwave. No you
, the metal and the microwave have not committed a sin just made a bad choice.
Killing yourself is the ultimate putting metal in the microwave. Theres is a better solution its just unknown. I feel your thoughts are compelely distort from depression
I've been there . The things you said in other posts could have came from my lips with
just a few name changes. The diffence is I was in my teens and 20's now I'm 36 and
taking anti-depressant. The few times in the last 13 years I stopped meds the craziness
thoughts return. My name TheMachine1 was coined by me at the height of my
last drug free depression spell (like a month before I joined WP). I was out of my mind
when i wrote the short story that I get TheMachine1 from. Now on generic prozac 20mg
I'm completely fine no depression! I still have ADHD keeping my butt glued to my bed
all day. But Prozac does not treat ADHD (well very well anyway). Oh I bought my
prozac online for a little less than a dollar a day. I did not need an rx they gave an online consultation (a quick form).