LGBT and aspie - how are you doing?

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I'm male-to-female transgender and have Asperger's Syndrome (diagnosed). Despite four years of being on estrogen, I still look male. My gender dysphoria has resulted in a lot of suicidal ideation recently.

I've never had a relationship, even though I desperately desire one. My gender issues prevent it. Straight guys and gay girls want someone who looks like a woman. Gay guys and straight girls want someone who acts and thinks like a man. These are obviously generalizations, but they reflect probability. I can't satisfy either role, so I'm stuck with nobody. I've never knowingly met a bisexual person in real life.

I'm out to my friends and parents only; I'm not out in general. Most of my friends are fine wih it, though some don't understand why I can't just stay male.

My parents, however, are not accepting at all. I was finally forced to move out because they would not tolerate me taking hormones while living at their house. It doesn't matter how many times I tell them how I feel, nor how often I cry; they always think its just one of my Asperger's obsessions. This is sad because my parents are atheist and therefore have no religious objections; they in fact said they'd be fine with me being gay - if I were.

I'll get back to crying alone now, like a typical Saturday.

I am gay, have never been in a relationship, but not sure how much I want one. A relationship would be nice, but it just doesn't feel important right now. Maybe as my hairline recedes further, I grow older and fatter and no one wants to be with me anymore, I'll change my mind.