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Hi! I?m Jessica Bonner and I?m 25 years old that has ADHD ASD (mild) Schizophrenia (originally paranoid schizophrenia thanks DSM V!) and some neurological issues (Juvenile Myoclonic Epilepsy-Reflex Epilepsy (Musicogenic (Slipknot, Nirvana, Foo Fighters, any music with guitar stop making my arm jerk and you too Marvin Gaye for just singing) Epilepsy and Photosensitive Epilepsy (I should just stop looking at police vehicles, stop watching movies, don?t go to movies, or attend concerts what fun!) With ASD I have difficulties in forming appropriate facial expressions (naturally resting b***h face ) body language, and no I just look naturally depressed and no I?m not going to smile to placate you. I take Focalin Xr for ADHD, Keppra for seizures, Effexor XR for suicidal thought for Schizophrenia and Geodon for the so called cruel and debilitating disease where males with the disease go out to kill their classmates at high school or college or otherwise known as Schizophrenia. With ADHD I?m easily distracted oh look another Buzzfeed article that asks which marvel character are you or which Hunger Games character are you or a Reddit article with a puppy or a news article when I?m trying to do school work, consistently disorganized (my room is a wasteland), and poor planning skills. With Schizophrenia I get paranoid that everyone has bad intentions towards me, watching and judging me for no reason. I used to have auditory hallucination commanding me to slice my mom in tiny pieces, to kill myself with the rifle in my grandpas closet because my life wasn't worth living, I could be a savior if I killed everyone in the store or to smother my grandmother with a pillow because it would be a mercy killing Perhaps I have post-traumatic stress disorder due to having been abused by my stepdad (choked, punched, shoved to the ground , wrestled and then pinned to the ground where he pressed his foot down on my chest until I screamed in pain, and slapped- from ages 13 through 17) and my dad (one incident where I was choked at age 13 and another incident where I was shoved to the ground and where I was picked up by my shirt and slammed down repeatedly at age 16). It?s to the point I?ve been having dreams where they?re nice to me, I?m killing my stepdad, and I think about the abuse and bring up the abuse where I?m still angry. I?m attending Community College with the desire to transfer to University of Arizona to attend the Strategic Alternative Learning Technique Program that helps students with learning differences so I can actually graduate with a major in Biology in order to get into medical school so I can be a medical professional within psychiatry or neurology. Oh did I mention that I have no friends except a family friend and my mom lol, not sure if I need any new friends (maybe I do). I enjoy listening to Muse, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Led zeppelin, Logic, Kendrick Lamar, Kanye West, Slipknot, Avenged Sevenfold, Metallica and let?s throw in some Mozart. I enjoy watching movies like Boyhood, The Grand Budapest Hotel, Guardians of the Galaxy, and I?m looking forward to seeing Birdman, Foxcatcher, Hunger Games Mocking Jay Part 1, Avengers Age of Ultron, Big Hero 6, Interstellar, Fast and Furious 7, and Whiplash. I also like watching the Flash, the Daily Show, the Colbert Report, Walking Dead, Key and Peele, South Park, the Simpsons, Modern Family, It?s Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Blackish, Gotham, Nurse Jackie, Scandal the black list, and American Dad. I also enjoy reading books like Jo Nesbo books and Gone Girl. Thank you so much for reading this.

Hey Jess welcome.

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Welcome to Wrong Planet!

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Hi, Jess. Nice to meet you.